AHHH! See Kim Pee = GONE?

Well, not REALLY gone, just to a new location! ^___^

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to go to my newest web log site. :)

Hmmm

Blog hittage has gone down substantially throughout this year. I suppose it shouldn't matter... But DAMNnNNnit.. AHHA ^_^; S'all good. Once summer comes and those top 10 bloggers of the day things come back... BWHAHAHHAAH I'll be busting it out.

^_^* You're so cute, Katie...

If I were your teacher, I'd give you an A+++++++++ HAHA!!... but then... If I were your teacher, I wouldn't have collected the HW, because I'm a lazy ass bum. ^_^

Got News Yesterday

That I might actually continue to work on the CNH Cyberkey!.. Haha... How funny, I guess I'll never get rid of KEY Club! :)~... But yeah, they said they might even be able to pay me for the work I'll do on the CyberKEY... SCOOOOOOORE!! :D

Grrr... I don't condone drugs

And it makes me kind of sick to know that so many people do them... I donno... It's just so gross and icky!.. Haha... For example: An Ecstacy Induced Blog... It's like... I don't know.. I don't care if people PRACTICE in illegal activities, but to proclaim it so.... :T... It's annoying. Although, I have to admit, all the chicks in her blog are very cute.

Got a new handy phone yesterday!

It's sooo cute! ^^; And it has a voice recorder!! Haha.. It's tight.. Now every time Nick calls it says "OHH MY GOD! It's NICK!"... And every time guys (in the book) call, it says "AHH! Hot guy alert! Pick up the phone, stupid!".. ^___^ Gyeaaaah! go me!

I miss Nick

I find myself feeling really lonely when I don't get my daily dose of Nick. Haha. It's so bad.. ^_^* But somehow he always makes me smile and/or says something to make the day seem brighter... Even when it's something completely silly like "Moooo to you too baby"... Heh. I don't know... I miss talking to him every day like we did in the summer I guess... I know he's super busy with school, though... And I don't want to interrupt that w/ my silly highschoolish complaining... ^_^* I just hope he's not too busy to talk/chill w/ me this summer!!!

Poo on college. Just found out another one of my most hated people is going to Irvine. Am I cursed??

Aish...

Thank you Michelle for making me feel better about my blog.. ^_^* Tee hee.. Sometimes I really do feel as if I'm not very ineresting to the average reader though. I wonder what would make my blog more interesting. Haha. Nothing, probably. Maybe if I turned my blog pink and became a girly girl... Yanno.. Now that I think about it.. I've never had a pink blog. I've always threatened it.. but it's never happened.. HmM... HEhE.. I havea couple hours before school starts. ^______^

I'm DONNEEE

NO MORE APS NO MORE BOOKS NO MORE TEACHERS DIRTY LOOKS!.. Well.. Ok maybe the last one.. But GYEAAAH... No more AP's!!

AP Status:
-4 years of English (3 of accelerated English) down the drain.
-4 years of French down the drain + a smack talking french teacher.
-AP Human Geography
-AP Chem: Not only did I black out, they made me call my mother.
3 AP tests down
1 AP test voided
1 AP test to go

Monday Morning
AP English
Wednesday Afternoon
AP French
Monday Morning
AP Human Geography
Monday Afternoon
AP Chemistry
Tuesday Afternoon
AP Government

HAHA

Amendment #1: Let Anime watching be changed to the last slot and wasabi to the third.
Amendment #2: Let the fifth and final challenge be a holding of breath contest.

Pat and I

Have challenged each other. Let it be said.

1. I will beat him at Quake III Arena
2. I will beat him at WWF Style Wrestling
3. I will beat him at watching Anime late at night
4. I will beat him at piling on the wasabi on the sushi
5. I will beat him at something else that has yet to be decided

And so on this day forward, the battle begins. ^_^ GO ME!

Oh man oh man...

So I'm sitting there, taking my AP Chem test... Suddenly these little white dots start showing upa dn I'm like oh shit... I'm like hey lady, can I go to the restroom? I was gonna go to splash my face right.. But then like by the time I got to the bathroom everything turned black! and I was like oh holy crap I should go to the office.. so i walked to the office.. Only I went into the wrong one.. and then as I left that one i forgot why I wans't taking my AP test,e ven though i was still really dizzy.. So I was walking back when my friend came by me and was like... Oh shit what's wrong with you?... I was like uhrhh... iunno AP test.. must take feel dizzy.. He's lie.. You're going to the office w/ me.. And I was like.. NooOoo AP test AP test... But then yeah, the took me to the office and they made me call my mother. =T THe ENd.

Hah

I love how everyone (even I) hates it when someone they know reads their blog (especially when it's a constant thing)... But then like... The people you know are the only people who care enough to read about the mundane things that you go through every day. Hah!.... And then... if your blog isn't for others to read, what is it for?... Well, personal reflection, I suppose... But not really. I don't know. I'm a confused individual that needs psychological help I suppose. :P

Am I too normal?

As I read blog after blog, I realise that mine is just like everybody else's... A compilation of the internet, my life and trivial things that I think are cool. I wish that I had something I was truly passionate about that I could write about every day. Besides myself, I don't really know what else to write about. I mean; it's not like I'm the expert in anything else. And I'm not too keen on trying to find a new specialty right now.

I guess I have a surface knowledge in the things that I'm interested in. I know a mediocre amount about cars... A little more than the average Anime fan a little less than otaku about Anime. I know about computers, but they're not my end-all. I don't know. I think I need to find a passion. Haha.. For something besides myself. :P Gee. That seems kind of narcissistic. (Wait, what am I saying, that IS narcissistic.)

School brings out the worst in me. I always feel a little depressed this time of year. It's hard for me to handle that everyone has their own things to do and can't pay attention to me. ^_^

Foood

I realise that cheese is the best thing ever. But what can I do... It gives me diarrhea and intestinal problems. I fart, I burp... I'm like a freaking gas machine. Sigh.. And all the cool Pizza parties given by my AP teachers down the drain. Hey, at least we don't have to take a final. That would suck such a fattie.

Kim

Ahh, a whole 4 days without the evils of AP Testing

Sometimes I feel as if I could be murderous. You know, go and kick the head of CollegeBoard in the balls and watch him/her die a slow painful death. Of course... That would be disturbed and I'd probably have to go to jail. Oh well... You don't have to do AP Testing in jail. I don't know what is worse: AP Tests or being buttraped by a large inmate.

Sigh

I hate the fact that I dwell on problems. I mean... I'm not generally an unhappy person... but once I get on a roll, every problem that comes along gets pulled apart in my mind like an insect in a laboratory. I don't know.... I think I'm just feeling a little run down or SOMETHING. Oh well.. Got rid of that ugly ass layout I had up. I reallly didn't understand why I ever put it up in the first place.. But yeah.. =D this is the simplest blog I've ever had (well, except for the first one, where it was the default... but that doesnt count because it only lasted like.. an hour)...Anyhow, yeah. I'm really liking it.. No skill involved and yet it still looks decent! Go me. =}

Grrrr

Back to simpleness.

Fuck Fuck Fuck FUUUUUUUUCK

I hate school. I hate my teachers. I hate the kids at school. I hate my friends. I hate everybody. Gragh. Just die and go to hell.

Kawaii Desu!

Saw a diary with a siggy at the bottom and it was really cute!! Deciding to do it to mine. ^_^ I'm so blatant!! Hahaha... But hey... They probably got it from someone too. Haha... But yeah.. ^_^* Now, just wish my siggy were cuter. I have a manly siggy.

This song makes me cry every time I hear it...

Saigo no Yakusoku

Sayonara Isogu youni
Anata ni Furi dasu ame
Nanika Nandemo ii hanashite
Motto Soba ni itai

Kono te o Hanaseba mou
Anata ni Todokanai no
Korae Kirenaku naru omoi ni
Kitsuku Hitomi tojita

Nakanaide saigo made
Sono kao mo koe mo Kokoro ni kizande itai no ni
Doushite na no shinjitakunai Omoide ni nante
Anata o aishi sugite iru

Kotoba ni Dekinai hodo
Kokoro ga Sakebu keredo
Ame ni Kono mama hiki tometara
Anata Nurete shimau

Damatte Kabau youni
Yasashiku Tsutsunda yubi
Itsuka Oboete ita subete ga Tooku Hanarete iku

Furi makanai anata ni
"Itsuka wa aeru" to Saigo no yakusoku matte ita
Nido to onaji yume o mirenai Wakatte iru kedo
Kono mama toki o Tometetai

Nakanaide Saigo made Anata ga mienai
Senaka ga nijinde kiete yuku
Shinjitakunai mada dekinai Omoide ni nante
Anata o aishi sugite iru

Final Promise

As it started to rain,

You seemed in a hurry to say goodbye.
Let's talk about something... anything.
I want to be with you a little longer.


If I let go of your hand,
I will never hold it again.
I've bravely closed my eyes against
emotions that are overwhelming me.


I won't cry until it's over.
Even though that face and voice
Are tearing my heart apart.
Why did this happen? I don't want to
believe it... with all these memories.
I love you too much

I can't even speak,
though my heart cries out.
If I keep holding you back like this,
you'll be soaked by the rain.

In a quiet, protective way,
you gently wrap your hands around mine.
Some day, my memories of this
will all fade away.

Without looking back, you say,
"We'll meet again some day,"
the final promise I was waiting for.
I know we can never share the
same dreams again, but...
I wish I could stop time like this.

I don't cry until it's over.
Once you cant' see me,
my courage melts away.
I don't want to believe... I still
can't... with all these memories.
I love you too much.

Grr

Just spent 47 minutes of my time writing e-mails to people that I'm going to truly miss next year. Haha. Gosh... I pick the best times to feel sentimental. And not sleepy. Though, I think I can feel my sleepiness returning... So I better try and catch it while I can... It actually feels a little more like nausea. But I'll live.

Michelle is so lucky!

=P She got to see Nick perform his pinoy dance thingie... =P I really wish I could have seen it... Sigh... If I hadn't had a grip of things to do this weekend, I would probably just be back from LA right about now. I wish life were all of those "I wishes" that always seem so futile and worthless when you really think about them.. (Cuz then, they wouldnt be so futile and worthless anymore.)

My Mother

What annoys me most about her is that she constantly thinks that my life revolves around guys. I love how she just came down here and said straight up, "Stop talking to boys." When I replied, "I'm not talking to boys, I'm writing." She promtly comes back with "Stop writing letters to boys." Okay, I don't know about you, but blogger.com looks nothing like an e-mail OR an IM. Of course, my mother wouldn't know that, since she's computer illiterate and thinks you move the mouse pointer by waving it in the air. Even THOUGH she's seen me utilize it for about what... Seven years now?

I'm in a very annoyable mood right now. I'll probably look and feel like hell tomorrow. Fuck. I need some sleep. Good ... day?

Sigh

The day of the AP English exam and I can't sleep. It's like, what... 4:05 AM? I guess it's because my mind is filled with unrest. . . Not because of the exam itself (strangely) but another thousand things that keep coming in and out of my head unwantedly. I am truly looking forward to the end of these next two weeks -- when I can finally relax and give over to the temptation to slack off in every class (well, except for chemistry, because Harriss as an asshole.. grr f*** him, though!)

I'm starving. It's 4 AM, though. What kind of food do you eat at 4 AM. I swear I've been eating food as if I'm pregnant lately. Constant flow of anything and everything that sounds good. Yesterday, I ate a bowl of rice and curry, and then a whopper about 2 minutes afterwards. Actually, that was only 6 hours ago. We, as humans are strange -- A span of 24 hours is in the same day, but past a certain point, a span of 1 second can be a different day.

HaHAHA! I love those filipino people!

So I'm looking for a new guestbook, right.. Since gbook.nu looks like it's gonna just break down anytime... So I'm looking and looking.. ANd finally I find one that's decent... Haha.. And I sign up for it without looking at the name.... It turns out... This place is like AsianAvenue for filipino people! AHahh.. It's the tightest shit ever... So now, unintentionally, I am a SuperPedro netty. Haha~! You heard me.. A netty! ^_^ I think everybody should sign up for this place... ^_^ Maybe I'll even be brave enough to post myself up in the eyeballs section!

www.superpedro.com

You know what kind of people I hate?

Those people that constantly IM you saying "hi" and "how's your day" and all that bunch of shit... And then always ask "are you there?" when you don't reply right away... And then the second you start trying to talk to them, they can't even come up with decent commentary towards what you're saying to them. Those hopelessly normal people that have nothing more in their minds than what they watched for TV the night before and what they had for dinner and what their dog did. God. I hate that type of person.

Aish

Every time I look at that picture of myself in the sweater, I get goosebumps. I remember hating myself so much at that time... And asking myself every day why I had to look so different and aweful and gross compared to everybody else. It's sad, but true... I don't know.. I truly believe that for me, changing my inside to something better made me change my outside for the better, though. If I hadn't met the inspirational people that I met... I wouldn't be here today, who I am today. Sigh...

Sigh

Met a nice, sweet, cute and fun guy today... But... Of course, with my luck.. He's already taken... And probably by a nice, sweet, cute and fun girl, too!! :P~... Haha I can't really feel jealous, because I can tell he really loves her... ^_^* By the way he speaks about her, so I'm happy... Damn though... Why are all the best mens taken???

Guys suck!!!

Oh damn... I used to be fat


No wonder I used to have such low self esteem... :( I saw that in the mirror every day.

Dang, I'm getting scanner happy

I found this picture of my ex-boyfriend and I... I can't believe how much I've changed since then... Haha... My standards have gone from negative 10,000 to 100 in the last 4 years. ^_^*

All-new (well, maybe one of them) never before seen sticker pics!

Well, actually, I guess a couple are on my ruler, but eh!! hahaha :) Here they are in a bigger form~

I get really bored

And random things come of it.. ^_^ Lately, I've been putting a lot of time into my planner, and I've been editing my rulers and making new separators.. Haha.. Here's my day planner "today" marker... :) Enjoy!

Oh my gosh

That is the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life. ^_^* Hahaha.. When I saw that, I hecka busted out laughing!! Michelle is the best artist EVER! ^_____^*** i can't wait to DL the icons so I can put it all over my desktop... Hmmm... So what kind of file should that represent...??

Ooo. Blogger.com Design contest!

Hehe! Blogger.com has a design contest! This is so exciting... I'm going to hecka enter into this thing... Wish me luck everybody. ^_^** Well, that is, unless you're entering it too... Then i wish YOU luck. :)

Hmm

I think the worst thing about this entire episode is that I respect his opinion too much. See, if I just didn't care what he thought, I would be fine right now... Only, I'm not!... The worst thing is that we haven't talked since, and I wish I could know what is really going through his mind. On one hand, I'm lucky; he's really busy right now, so he probably doesn't remember me at all... So the negative feelings won't stew. On the other hand, I'm unlucky.. :( What if he forgets about me completely? That would be saddening. . .

My problem is that I think too much. I really do over care about certain people's opinions of me, and under care about others. Ahh well. What can I do? That's life.

Ah, feeling distraught

Sigh. Sleeping didn't really help. I guess this is probably a good time to take a sabbatical from AIM. :P It's evil as evil can be.

So Nick is mad at me

Well... Yeah... He does have reason to... See, he told me he had a blog, and during conversation with a coworker of his, (my new hostee! Michelle), it came up. We were joking and I told her that i had guessed where it was but had never checked it... And of my two top guesses, one of them turned out to be right. I was going to keep it a secret from him... But, yeah... I don't know.. I felt really bad so I told him...

And then yeah... Now he's angry. With due cause. I don't know what to say to him, though. I mean what CAN I say, really "Sorry I butted into your personal thoughts." ??.. Sigh. Maybe I'll write him a letter or something.