GoD, HELL no... HELL fucking no.. this sucks.. Somebody has been using MY pictures with THEIR identity on www.kineda.com... And her name is "asian girl" ??!! WHAT THE FUCK.. SO not funny.

Kim

Kha's a moron....

DarkenedAura: cuz everything i felt was sincere
DarkenedAura: but everything she did
DarkenedAura: wasn't
DarkenedAura: it was cuz i "back her into a corner"
im very ticklish: what do you mean?
DarkenedAura: and "layed guilt trips"
im very ticklish: hmmm
im very ticklish: I can actually see that
im very ticklish: Didn't you tell her
DarkenedAura: i dont know
im very ticklish: that you loved her more than life itself
im very ticklish: adn tat the only way she could her her
im very ticklish: hurt her
im very ticklish: was that if she said she didnt feel the same?
DarkenedAura: hurt me
im very ticklish: i mean yeah
DarkenedAura: yeah
im very ticklish: Ummm
im very ticklish: That IS laying a guilt trip and backing her into a c orner
DarkenedAura: hold up

Hahaha.. Okay.. is it just me, or is he being a moron right there?? GeeSh!! People need their room you know... Freaking idiot.

Kim.

My new anthem... This and Digital Getdown yo.. HAHAHA

Artist: NEXT Song: Cyber Sex Album: Welcome II Nextasy Cybersex

I want your PC uhhh [welcome to nextasy] I want your PC [guys press 1, ladies press 2] I want your PC [your selection is 2] uhh [access granted] I want your PC Sit on my laptop Push all my buttons Baby, please don't stop (You can) Download all over me Let me into your internet Dial me up It's time for Cybersex T-Low: It's like 4 in the morning Wake up like your hungry But know your really horny Really need you something Look over at your PC Start thinkin' freaky Know ya need me, power it up come see me cuz I want your PC Sit on my laptop Push all my buttons Baby, please don't stop (Download) Download all over me Let me into your internet Dial me up It's time for Cybersex R.L: So you want me at ya house Squeeze the mouse I'm comin' out This what you wanted now Oh, technology, wow! Anytime you need a fix Just put in my hard disk No viruses, no risk Isn't this the shit I'm lovin' it, cuz I want your PC Sit on my laptop Push all my buttons Baby, please don't stop (Don’t stop) Download all over me Let me into your internet Dial me up It's time for Cybersex I want your PC Sit on my laptop Push all my buttons Baby, please don't stop Download all over me Let me into your internet Dial me up It's time for Cybersex Break: I know you fiend For your computer screen Want to do new things Orgasmic dreams Come work me on so I can hit you off Dial W-W-W next dot com Come on I want your PC Sit on my laptop Push all my buttons Baby, please don't stop Download all over me Let me into your internet Dial me up It's time for Cybersex RL ad-lib over chorus: On my computer screen We can do anything Baby ohhh Technologically, sexually On my PC ohh Gotta get on the net Gotta get a piece of mine ohh Dial me up I wanna be inside you baby Technologically, sexually You and me on my PC Sexually, technologially You and me Cybersex You and NEXT

Wanna know something strange? I don't get mad anymore... Like.. I used to get mad and hecka wanna like kill people.... but now when i'm mad I just wanna fall asleep.. Isn't that weird? I don't know.. like when my boss yelled at me at Con, i would just get hella tired...heehee...

I'm bored... My finals are tomorrow and the day after... My friend Albert's birthday is tomorrow, but I can't go to his surprise party because it's my finals day! Aish... all good though... I love that boy and he knows it.. :) Maybe I'll make him a webpage or something.. :D He'd like that, rai?? Hopefully!! hehehehee.. That would be coooL.

Yay.. Okay.. Niall says he isn't mad at me...That kidna brightens my day a little bit!! :D... YAY... You know what sucks though? I am like ms. perpetually happy... It kinda sucks?? I don't know.. Whenever I'm not like WOoHhoOo people are like "Are you OK? are you sick? Do you need to lie down?" I'm like dude.. what if I just don't feel like smiling?

Geez! My posts are hecka long to day.. ANyway.. yeah!! Arjel a guy that I met from Comic Con is going to call me tomorrow! Yay! Hehehe he's so cool.. Hahaha.. He even mentioned me on his page! YAY me! I feel so famous! Hahahah... anyhow yeah... I guess I'm going to jet now.. :P taking too much room. Leyts!

Another thing that kinda pissed me off was that like yeah.. At the youth ambassador's conference thingie.. I got put in charge of the Kid's Make and Take booth at the Youth Fair up in ehre you know.. And I'm like telling her about it and shiet and she doesn't even have anything positive to say about it.. She's just like "pshh Yeah, that's going to make a great impact on humanity right there" and I'm like dude.. I don't care yo.. it's for the little kids... so she's all "Yeah, i'm sure you'll change their lives.." I'm like whatever dude... for that one moment, if I make a kid smile its worth all of the work, you know? but whatever... She used to be able to see it that way.. but I guess she can't anymore...

I can't really tell if it's me that's changed or her... I think I've always been an idealist... I love doing service just for the sake of doing service... and it's so fun and stuffs you know.. I dont' know.. But then, I like all the other stuff that comes with being part of a large organization like Key Club too! It's part of the experience..

I've noticed, though that Carolyn isn't really into the making new friends everywhere kind of thing.. but all good... No biggie i suppose.. We're just getting really different. ^_^*

Wahh! I think Niall is angry at me... I mistakely ignored him today.. Oh wells... You know what? I found out that Lucky's brother is the artist for one of the top 10 comics in the US right now WitchBlade apparently.. hehehehe... Alex was hecka angry when he found out. ^_^; WhooOps!!

Let's see what else yeah... Carolyn and I are having problems... I dunno.. maybe i'm just having problems with her.. Eugh! I can't stand her pessimistic attitude lately when it comes to community service. And like... Dude... Checks this.. I was just joking around and i was like "Yeah, I hope we get Jessica Weiss as our int'l trustee cuz i can be like.. yeahhh.. weiss kreuz baby".. and she's like "thats kinda shallow, isn't it?" And its like.. well duh.. i was joking...

But then later on I asked her if she wanted to go to this hecka fun community service project where we get $100 to spend on a little kid for his clothes and stuff and its hecka cool cuz you wake up early in the morning and everything in the store is like on sale and stufF! Aish! :D it's SOO FUN seriously... Cuz like yeah! the kid hecka looks up to you.. Last yaer I made my kid the pimp of them all! But yeah... Anyhow.. She's like "Eugh.. Nah... My skin would melt".. And I'm like.. excuse me? Its like.. she didnt want to go because she would have to walk there and apparently it would kill her skin? OK... riiiiight... Even though later she's like "Yeah.. I'm going to be sunning in Catalina islands during that time anyway" I'm like.. whatever dude...

GRRR.. pessimistic attitudes!

Went to comic con... :) Back now~ YAY! Mucho thanks to Katie for blogging for me whilst I was gone... YAY the crackwhore e-mailed me!! This guy named Liquid Jel is talking to me! Hmm.. I met this guy named Lucky Cha.. Hope he e-mails me cuz I don't remember where I put his e-mail.. ^_^* WhoOps

Cute short story: Lucky walked me out during my break (after he 'browsed' our store for about an hour or something) and like walked me outside hehehe.. and then I promptly fell asleep on a hard concrete bench... Well.. after I asked him if i could use his shirt to cover my face from the sun... and then I fell asleep.. hehehe... but then like yeah.. I had to go back in, you kno? and like then he helped me up... and like our hands just stayed there.. ^_^* It was cooL! cuz then like neither of us knew what to do and we were like "uhh.." ... so finally we pulled away and I was like "Uhhh" hahaha and he's like "uhh..." ... "Ahem.."... "hmmm"... So finally (witty me) i bust out with "SooOOOOoOO How's the weather?" (mind you, we were both outside...) and he's like "uhh.. Hot.. " AHHAHAHAHA anyhow yeah.. that's my story! the end.. More to come when I think of it...

Kim isn't here.. so Katie is taken oVeR!!! OoOOOoh... everyone be afraid!!

I just talked to Kim on the phone -- she's on the bus to daygo and like hahaha she had to sit next to a crackwhore for a while and he was talking about all the times he'd violated his probation and sucking robo and nyquil and other OTC miscellany. Wow. heh

Ho... damn... inspiration for a new madpimp. I'll come out in a couple hours.

Hahaha.. I was surfing and I found a "FLoRiDa AzN PaHTeEee page... :) Thought you would like it Katie... BAHHAHAHAHA!! You asianpheliac you.

Measured myself again last night.. I am now 32-22-34.. MY ASS GREW~! Niall says it's OK but I'm kinda embarrassed! I haven't gained any weight.. I don't know where the two inches came from :T

I applied for some jobs today.. Pissed off.. I dont think any will pay me more than 7.25/hr... MUTINY!!! I'm complaining to the manager!.... Anyway.. Yeah...

YAY! So excited!! :D Sandy Eggo soon!

Won't you tell me baby boo what you want what you need maybe I'll be the one that you need till i die baby... let me tell you what the things that you dont realize so let me televise my love so you can fantasize conjunction function look at the situation there was a time aside for conversation its kinda sad but thats our only option... keep it on the downlow till they get there uh.... yeah that's how it is thats keepin reminice you know i keep it real oh yes you know we deal with dis but im sick of dis fuck this acting stupid for the show biz gee wiz but what i be the one i'm down wit dis... My heart is always wit you even though we part baby i know you will set up the car so we can get away yuki and me cruisin in my mitsubishi And time's going it's going and gone it's gone like the wind that can't stop i stop not at the bus stop you in my drop top yeah we turn the lock thats right you and me baby mess around in the parking lot... (should you want) take the time to explain my mind (could you want) you're so fine i wanna make you mine! yes and on my side yeah.. can you be with me living luxury and we'll be making precious history I keep your picture by my bed so I can know you in my head take my hand by your hand and i will always be your man you gotta trust in me like i will trust in you baby close your eyes and my love will see you through Yo if you keep this in your mind you will make it through this time you will find its a sign it is written in my rhyme even though we apart you are always in my heart honey stay with me forever and do anything you'll never can we make it through this phase i will see you through this maze if you put your faith in me happy ending we will be that's the promise yuki any time.. you'll see.

Mmm.. Talking to Niall.. You know.. I really hope he isn't hot.. cuz yeah.. He's nice, british, has a cool voice, funny, and is hecka fun to talk to... So if he's hot.. I'm really gonna have to kick something.. hehehe :D I love his NAME too! Niall Stallion.. I mean who can't love that name?? Yeahhh.. Anyhow.. Right now I'm going to go rap.. ^_^* Hehehhe and upload it.. YAY! aren't you happy?

*writing down roms she sees and wants to download after she's done w/ this batch*
bustamove
magic knight rayearth
miracle girls
ranma (maybe)
tekken2?

*5 minutes later
I finally broke down and asked jeeves... :D I love that old butler. I found a site with 20 Sailor Moon roms! YAY

Geez... Looking for roms is hecka hard.. :< Sigh... So many advertisements!! This sucks.. I just want some goddamn sailor moon roms! >_<

Where is Mr. I-Can't-Hold-My-Urine when you need a good laugh?! grr.

Katie the Bitch is gone... Niall the Stallion's gone... BooBoo's gone... Danilo's gone.. Even Captain Firedung is gone... SIGH! Who do I talk to now?.. None other than Gay Ray... Wanger was talking to me for a while.. but he had to do homework or something.. SherBear is busy... and I don't even know what Ashish is up to... Grr.... Kim is boreeeddddddddd. :< I'm going to go crawl into a corner or something.. Teehee.

Hmmm.. I talked on the phone w/ Niall for the first time yesterday! He has a really sweet voice... but he refuses to turn on his British accent.. :D He's from England you know...

I heard some girls hit on him yesterday.. Teehee... What a hottie. ^_~

YAY! ^_^ Time for a new layout for this blog thingieee... I'm tired of this one already. :< Too boring!! too plain!! I'm going to keep the rainbowish girlie theme, though.. ^_^* YAY! Hahaha... (I'm SO interesting, huh? But yeah... I think the next one is going to be pink... YAY im going to be one of those so-called "Pink whores" :P... OK.. those of you who aren't into webpage design have no idea what I'm talking about probably.. ^_^* But that's OK, because I'm absolutely insane! Okay, I'm jettin. BYE!

I am SO happy! I lost my bubbles somewhere in Florida... and like.. I've been really wanting some lately and my mommy bought me some! YAY!! :D surprising how much 39¢ can save my day! Hehehe! Let's seee YEAH! I'm just bored and stuff so I'm going to jet now. ^_^*

YAY okay, I took my shower and put on makeup... I still don't feel very pretty. :( Too many disappointments lately... I hope I look good for the camera... SERIOUS!! :< Usually I feel hecka pretty for photo shoots.. HmMm... But yeah... ^_^ I HOPE I'll look good today!!

Okay.. For you die hard Kim-Journal fans... ^_^; Remember the guy that peed on me??? Hahaha.. We've been talking again lately and he might come over sooN! HAHAHA.. He's SO sexy! GEEZ... Hehehe! I wanna like.. go somewhere with him! He's sooo fun.. I hope he calls me more.. :P~

You know... I need to find some hot guys to hang out with.. Cuz like yeah... There are NONE where I'm at right now.. Sigh!! Maybe I'll go work @ footlocker... You know, I think a lot of ballaz go there. ^_^ HEHEHE... Maybe a coffee shop.. Go for the more sophisticated type.. NAHHHHHH...

You know, blasting happy music at the top of my speakers and dancing ALWAYS makes me feel better. ^__^

I'm taking my senior portraits today!! I should go take a shower.. grr.. too lazy.. TEEHEE! I hope I look pretty in them.. It would suck not to... Everybody usually looks hecka good, you know? It's like "What if I'm that ONE chick that looks totally gross"... I'm usually photogenic.. but.. I don't know if I'm up for it today, you know???!!! WAH!! I'm going to wear the red dress and the black dress that they give you.. You know.. the off-the-shoulder one.. We HAVE to wear those.. doesn't that suck? all good I guess... ^_^* Anyhow! I'm going to go take a shower now so that my hair can dry in time....

You know what I realized last night? Whenever I talk to people, I take a little piece of them with me... So like.. when I talk to negative people, I become negative myself for a little bit... Or when I talk to really positive and energetic people it makes me want to be like them... (I guess that's what they mean by Pisces being a Mutable Sign!)... Teeeheee... Yeah... So yeah.. I don't think I should talk to Kha anymore! It just makes me too negative... He prides himself in being "dark" and "deep"... WTF is that... Whatever.. I prefer to be "light" and "flighty" any time.. Much more fun!! :< HmPh.

Question: What's up w/ Niall?

The center of the Celtic Cross (NOT SHOWN) is the card you have chosen to represent yourself.
DAUGHTER OF STONES -- Willingness to take responsibility for something greater than oneself. Love, courage and dedication. Inner beauty.
*I always feel kinda conceited picking the representer!! They never have anything negative! Heehee.

The first card you have chosen has been placed on top of your card. This is the card that covers you and it represents the general atmosphere regardings your query.
NINE OF WANDS -- Great energy. Arrogance, especially toward those who feel weak. Life's resiliency.
* ^_^ Uh-oH! Hahaha.. Is that really me?! :D

The second card (NOT SHOWN) is placed horizontally across the current two cards. This card represents opposing elements (for good or evil) surrounding your query.
AEON: -- Renewal. Optimism in spite of a painful period of change. Change. Spontaneity. All things are possible. Old world seen through new eyes.
*Hmmm... Maybe it means I'm not accepting Niall's want to help me through this minor heartache.. ;)

The third card, the card beneath, represents the basis of your query; this is something already a part of the experience.
TWO OF CUPS (reversed) -- Quarreling or jealousy. Uncertain future. Lack of commitment.
*Aieeee.. Sounds like my relationship with Kha exactly!

The fourth card, the card behind, represents an element that is just coming to pass or has just pass.
THE SUN: (reversed) -- Sun is clouded over. Day-to-day problems, though happiness remains. Loss of confidence. Frustration.
*Heck yeah I lost my confidence! :< How ould I not??

The fifth card, the card that crowns, represents a possible aspect of the future. This is not a card of certainty.
NINE OF CUPS (reversed) -- Stinginess. Loss.
*This better not happen!

The sixth card, the card before, represents strong aspects of the future surrounding your query.
EIGHT OF CUPS (reversed) -- Hidden joy. New happiness. Positive change.
*This means I can be happy again? YAY!!!! ^_____^

With the seventh card begins the view into the deeper aspects of your situation. This card represents your fears, negative feelings or other uncertainties.
JUSTICE: (reversed) -- Do not act out of habit. Imbalance. You may be acting unfairly. Trying to avoid an honest evaluation.
*So true so true... Somebody tell me what to do, here!!! :<

The eighth card represents your family's (or close friends') influence or opinions. Think of this as the close external forces.
SEVEN OF WANDS -- Courage and daring - possibly, the courage to retreat. Using one's power for transformation.
*Hey! I was just talking to Allen and Katie about that last night... :D about how for a while I've been mega-negative and I'm going to try to return to my old self again... TEEHEE! YAY ME

The next to last card represents your hopes and desires. The forces you are currently adding (conscious or otherwise).
MOTHER OF CUPS (reversed) -- Someone out of touch with physical realities.
*:Shrug: What's wrong with that? :P

The last card brings together the entire reading. This card represents the final outcome of your query.
EIGHT OF SWORDS -- Interference. Gossip. Help or advice.
*Eww, gossip? ^_^ Help or advice sounds good!

Hehehhee... YuP.. There's me and Niall. YAY

Anyway.. I feel better now, peeps. :) I talked to Kha's cousin, Chris... Who's been helping me out w/ all of this, you know? Yeah.. I feel hecka better now.. SiGh.. I guess I just needed to vent and shiet.. You know how it is!! I guess I'm still pissed.. But I'm allowed to be, right?! ^_^ Yepyep.. That's it!... I'm going to go now, aiiet?? Okay bye!

Let me let you know, yeah,
That I'm leavin, babeeee...
Let me let you know, yeah,
That I'm leavin, baybeee....
I don't know where I'm going,
But I'm going far from here...
Let me let you know babeee...
That I'm leavin, baybe......
One more thing.. before I go...
I hope you feel alone...
Cuz I'm definitely tired
Of waitin for you to come home....

-Pink

Yeah... I hate guys... Hahah.. okay.. I'm going to stop bitching.. You know what's going to cure my anger? I'm going to go look at design pages. That's right. Kim is going to go check out good pages. GO KIM GO KIM GO GO GO GO.. (to the tune of go ninja by vanilla ice.. my idol!.. ok, eminem is.. but close enough? ^_^)

Okay.. I'm still pissed. I need someone to come online so I can bitch about them about this.. I swear.. Only 4 people I can bitch to right now.. HmMm.. GRR someone sign on!! FAST... I'm losing my patience here!! :< This blog is soo addicting though.. I type here whenever there's no one to IM... It even LOOKS kinda like an IM window!! I think I'm addicted. :Sigh: And a little depressed. Today I am the victim. Yes I am.

Oh yeah.. :P And for anybody out there who actually reads this (which is like.. umm. 2 people? Maybe I'll advertise more.. nah... But I did well on my physics test! YAY ME! Aren't you proud of me? :) Well, I dont know if I did well, but I'm fairly confident about myself! ^_^ At least one good thing happened today.. :P Well, 2.. I'm completely over him. HMPH.

Okay... AND yeah.. What a fucking LIAR!! Mr. "Oh yeah, I dont think we should be together because we don't communicate"... I guess that means "We shouldn't be together because I want to fuck your closest friend" Or something??? It's like..wTF.. Can't you just tell me up front? OBVIOUSLY I would find out sometime or other.. Yeah... Maybe he LIKES looking like a jerk or something. Fucking piece of shit.. GRRR.. Somebody hit me the next time I want to jock a guy.

Okay.. What the HEZZIE... Hah.. Whatever... WHATEVER... Apparently Kha is in love with CAROLYN.. Hahaha... Right? And guess where he was yesterday! You guessed it, folks! CAROLYNS house! Oh joy.. Great for me, huh? I'm just having a dandy ole time up in here. Yeah. RiGHT. I hate guys right now.. Seriously. I really hate them. I'm going to give him a piece of my mouth when he comes online. Mother fucker. Grag... I am unbelievably pissed at him right now. I CANT EVEN TYPE.. FUCK... Okay I'm going now before I bust a vein.. GRARGHHHhHHhh!!!

I'm so scared... I hate waiting.. :( I got my friend to leave a note on his bed.. but I don't know what's up now.. I want to talk to him really badly. :T I feel bad for lying to my friends about not liking him.. Sigh... Why'd I have to introduce them to each other? I don't know.. I'm a moron I guess. :< I am the worst at this like.. liking stuff.. I swear.. Now I'm depressed. I'm going to write letters or something...

Why didn't SOMEBODY tell me I was a fucking moron BEFORE?... Okay.. Like.. I went over there, right? Well, his cousin's house anyway.. and THEN.. It turns out he has WORK.. So I'm like.. Well, OK... OK... that's fine, you know? Work, not bad, right? Of course not...

But then... When his work time is OVER.. He's at the MOVIES!! What the hell is THIS? This boy almost NEVER goes out?! And then this ONE time that I want to see him HES OUT!! FUCK ME! Okay.. And then I'm like.. OK OK.. I'll wait till the movie's over... 3 hours later...

Okay, maybe he's just hanging out with his friends! Dandy... JUST GREAT! Well, lucky me... Just happens that I have to go HOME now... SIGH.. So yeah.. There goes my chance at proving that I CAN be romantic to some degree... Look where it takes me! :T HMPH!! WELL GUESS WHAT?! I ATE ALL HIS FOOD.. GRAAHAHAAHAHHAHAHA.. -.-

I'm so tired, but I still have one more section of my stupid Physics test to take.. SIGH!! I hate being sick! Things take 3 times as long as they would to register if I wasn't sick! This sucks.. It took me like.. an HOUR to figure out this weblog thing .. Haha.. I felt like a moron afterwards.. I was like.. uhh. :( grr... stupid florida weather! Anyhow... I'm afraid of my plan with Kha not going through! He's never home anymore :( Cuz he has work.. and then ballroom dancing at night. :< Oh well.. I'll figure something out... Maybe I'll go to his work. ^_^*

I'm sooo bored.. You know that boredness that you get.. when you want to procrastinate for something (cough cough, my test) and like.. you can't find anything else to do? I'm keeping myself 'busy' buy blogging like heck.. Oh yeah.. I'm sooOo cooL! I keep going to this one chick's page.. Cruel Reviews... It's hecka funny because like... At first I thought the reviews were good, you know? (When there were like.. 2) But now it's sooo blaseee.. I mean GEESH... How many times can you complain about image attributes (as if it's THAT important) or someone's spelling? grr.. but anyhow.. Im going to go ... do something with myself or something.

YAY! My blogger has a home now!! CliCk CliCK YAY!! SMACK MY BITCH UP.. SMACK SMACK MY BITCCHHH Up... Oioieiiieie yyeeeeeee ha. AM I CRAZY???

Alright.. I'm bored... and getting addicted to this thing.. I haven't thought up of a good layout yet.. so I'm just sitting here... Yeah... just chillen.... I'm so cool!... And in love... <3... I wonder if he'll accept my apology.. :( Maybe I should go clean my room to get my mind off it.. Noo.. I'll think of a new layout... :D That's right.. Sit here and THINK THINK THINK.

I should be doing this take-home makeup quiz that my Physics teacher gave to me today. ^_^* Aiyee, though!! I'm SUCH a procrastinator.. :( I'm really bad at this math crap.. Oh well.. :T I promise myself.. at 8.. YEP.. at 8 I'll start working on it. Sigh.. Keep thinking about Kha, though... Maybe I'll start working on a layout for this page. :) YAY.. that'll keep my mind off things... Be back later!

Geez!! I'm sooo stupid! I can't stand this... I keep thinking about Kha and going "fuckfuckfuckfuck"... I have a kinda good idea though.. Like... I'm thinking of going to the house of someone who lives near him tomorrow with this picnic basket, right? ANd then I want to walk over there, while talking to him on my cell phone and then when I get to his door I'll ask him to answer the door and then he'll HAVE to talk to me! (he's not talking to me!) :P I don't know.. Is that too corny? I'll think about it.. I have a whole day! ^_^

Since I came back from Florida, I've been hecka sick... But yeah... So I've been checking out my boogers and stuff, you know? It's kinda weird.. When I first came back.. they were dark brownish yellow... EWW I guess I was really sick then.. Yesterday they were kinda white.. but now they've turned yellow again.. :T I dunno.. My mom says I should go to the doctor. Okeee... That's my booger update.

Teehee.. YaY! More useless stuff... I'm telling Katie ( aka akua) all my troubles with figuring out this blog stuff and now she's laughing at me. ^_^* OkEee.. I'm going to show it to her now.. Baibai. :D YAY useless stuff and more!!

You know that feeling when you've just screwed up terribly? I feel that right now... There's this really nice, sweet guy that I've been jocking for a long time.. but then when he asked me out... I kept saying no... and.. well.. HA.. I don't know what's wrong with me. :( I'm not going to give up, though!! (REALLY!) I'll be back.