^_^*

Something's seriously screwy with my computer at home, I guess. Nothing seems to be working up in there. :T Anyhow... Life? Not too great lately, but I'll live, I suppose. ^_^; It's busy. . . I guess I can't really ask for more. Aiee. I should stop blogging at school. I'm always afraid of people looking over my shoulder. >_<

I wonder if Blogger is working again..

>_< I'm so addicted, it's not even funny.

Hm

If last weekend seemed perfect to me, then this is my hell. Ahh, the joys of living on the part of the world that is in limbo, yes? Perhaps a higher force just wants to tell me that I am being too cocky -- I think my life is perfect. I needed to be knocked down off my high horse.

I could not be more angry at myself, and all the people around me. There is so much to write that I cannot write about it right now. My keyboard would become even more worn out than it already is. Heh.

Where do I begin To tell the story of how great a love can be The sweet love story that is older than the sea, The simple truth about love he brings to me Where do I start? With his first hello He gave a meaning to this empty world of mine There'd never be another love another time He came into my life and made the living fine He fills my heart! He fills my heart with very special things With angel songs with wild imaginings He fills my soul with so much love That anywhere I go I'm never lonely with her love Who could be lonely? I'll reach for her hand, it's always there. How long does it last? Can love be measured by the hours in a day I have no answers now but this much I can say I know I'll need him till the stars all burn away And he'll be there.

Neh

People may suffer from 'kimtoxication'.... But I'm a nickaholic.

Ahhh. Again it's the mens!

I always find myself drawn back to this page. It's crappy as hell, but wow, are the boys on there adorable! I want to take one home to keep. :P~ Wish it was some kind of adopt-a-pinoy service. ^_~ Till then, I'll settle for just looking at the cute pics.

Don't you hate it when

Someone you consider a friend just TOTALLY pisses you off with their stupidity?! ARGH! He pisses me off! he was like obsessed w/ my friend and they were going out... and then she broke up with him because of his mad insecurities and emotional instabilities (she didnt SAY that.. but yeh that's what it was) so now he's like making a huge deal about blahbalh i cant get over it blah blah.

That wouldn't be too bad... If what happened today didn't happen. So like last night he asked me if the three of us could go out...a day out or something yanno? So then i was like aiiet, what harm can it do? She was like aiiet as well. so then we go out and he's like sulking the whole time and it was HIS idea. and then hes like this was a bad idea i wanna go home take me home. i was like wtf it was your idea at least make an effort to be decent to us.

so we go to the mall and he starts crying... On this bench. And I'm like I'm geting the fk out of here. And I leave my friend so she can takl to him in private. (As privately as you can on a bench in the middle of the mall anyhow). And then they come back and he's like.. I'm going home. So we take him home..

And then later on I was like sow aht was up with that. I was just hella pissed because he was all tlaking about how he was depressed because she doesn't seem as affected by the breakup as much as he is. I was like... well duh you fing idiot, she broke up with you, what kind of pompous jerk thinks that the persont hat breaks up with them is going to be heartbroken... Of course, i didnt SAY that... But I wanted to. i said obviously, since she broke ujp with you and he's like that's not fair you're saying it didnt mean anything to her

I was like.. I'm not.. I'm asking why you think she should be as affected as you by this when she is the one that dumped you.. Of course this relationship meant something to her. Do you think she's the type of girl who would go out with a guy if it didnt mean anthing? are you the kind of guy that falls for a girl like that?

She did care for you. She does, you just can't see it because you're too busy wallowing in your own self pity. I feel no sympathy, Sorry, but that's the truth.

And then he said that I chewed him out unjustly and blocked me. Hnh

Drew two more today!

Haha. I guess these two are how i want to be. I mean... They have the body I want. Nyah!

Guess I'm on a Streak

But I drew another one~ ^_^* Mmm. I was telling Michelle how my goal this year is to kiss somebody in the rain. :) It seems so romantic!!... And then, I was inspired.

Drew a Picture Today


Before the makeover


After the makeover

Slowly reaching Five Thousand

My counter is reaching five thousand. ^_^* I wonder if I should do anything special for the occasion. It seems kinda mundane... But yeah, I'm lame like that. Hahaha. Maybe I'll draw a CG or something. I'm kind of in the mood to draw right now, actually. Hmm. What to draw, though. Ne. . .

Hah, Ray

You make me smile... I bet you talk to her on AIM, too. And you hope she'll read your blog. You sound like a little school child -- the giggling and all. =] And yet, it reminds me of myself. I've done that exact same trick before. But, yanno, now that I think about it, I believe I'm more likely to put outbursts of vengeance on here hoping people will read it. Rather than those of your type. :P

I hope the best for you. ^_^

It's so cold out here

And somehow I feel cold inside as well. At times like this, I wonder why I'm ever stupid enough to be optimistic. As always, the rain makes me feel melancholy. The rain always comes down like tears in somebody's eyes. Perhaps Ray is right... That rain means that somebody, somewhere is getting their heart broken. Maybe, though, it's just the tears of all the people who feel lonley. That's why there's so much rain lately. A lot of lonliness. Sigh... It seems less depressing than yours, Ray.

Still depressing though. ^_^* Rain bugs.

To be special

I think my dream is to be special. I guess it doesn't really matter to whom... Just as long as I am special... In a good way, of course.. Not like dur dur-ish type of special. It's hard, though, since I'm so ordinary. Never in my life have I met somebody so ordinary as I. Sigh. I suppose I should just aspire.

I'm in love

With Michelle's new design. It's so cute!! Ahh, makes me want to make a new design, too!! I'm getting bored of faye. :P Trying to think of what pictures I like better than hers, though. That's really hard. :T Booo. Maybe it's about time for me to surf the design pages again. ^_^ Concepts concepts!!! Aish.

Scanned our sticker pictures!! :)~

Ah, rice

No matter what I eat, I always go back to the rice. I don't think that there is any starch supplicant that is as pleasurable to eat as rice. I mean... It's just so easy to chew.. And when you're too lazy to chew it, you can just slosh it around in your mouth for a while and then swallow. It's nice.

You know. The word for rice sounds like "Cum" in vietnamese. It's white. It's sticky. Where do the similarities end?!!

I'm Speechless (Well, sort of.)

I don't know if my weekend could have been more perfect. :) My brother came on Thursday night, and finally brought my car.. It's not as bright as I thought it would be, but hey! I have a car~ I feel pretty lucky, especially since I can't even drive yet... My mom allowed me to stay home on Friday so that I could go out to a business lunch with this woman. . . That was pretty awesome in itself.

After that became an endless anticipation of Nick coming to San Jose. ^_^*~ Okay, it wasn't that bad, but during the lulls in my day, that was definitely on my mind. Roy and Hyung came over and Hyung played Puzzle Fighter with me while Roy slept. My mom, brother and I went to dinner while Roy still slept in the room on the side. hah. ^_^*

Nick came about an hour or so after we got home from dinner. =} It was so nice seeing him again! He kept saying he looked "all tore up"... Teehee.. But he looked as gorgeous as ever... =} We talked until 2 AM... and then I went to bed...

Haha.. Unfortunately, I had to wake him up at 7:30 AM to go to a service project ^_^* It turned out to be pretty fun, though! We helped build a cabinet. . . :) The old KIWANIS guys really had an affinity to Nick.. They took hecka pictures of him working! :D And then, after we finished our job as cabinet builders, we just wandered around the place for a while... Which happened to be a kiddie ride/zoo thing. :D We got stuck in a maze and then we wandered into the zoo. ^_^* Teehee! I found out he really has a thing for pot-bellied pigs. ^_^* I guess that's good... I was born in the year of the pig... And... I have a belly. =D! . . . But yeah~ Hehe... He was soo cute.. Trying to touch the pig and all.

After that, we went to the arcade... And I kicked his butt multiple times at Puzzle fighter. Score!! =D Kim = Standing Puzzle Fighting Champion. BWHAHAHA!!. Yepyep.. But he kicked my butt at every other type of computer game. ^_^* Especially the street fighter one. Nyah Nyah!!

We then headed over to Mitsuwa~ Where I ate some sushi (We had eaten at Carl's Jr, but I'm not one for greasy foods. I felt kinda sick after eating some)... And then we took some sticker pics! =D YAY! Haha.. The first one, Nick didn't smile (Apparently, he never smiles for pictures)... :)~ But yea~ In the second one, he has this cute happy smile and the frame says "WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!" hahaha~! It's cute, cuz his last name is Champion.. Puhahaha. Anyway. But yeah..!

And then we came back to my house and took a nap together... Mmmm. :) And we talked.. And we chilled in my room for a lil while... And he went home. BoOO. ^_^* it was a great visit, though! SIgh... It just serves to make me miss him even more, though. =T Nyah nyah.

Exactly one Month

Until I turn 18. Supposedly it's a turning point age. I wonder. . . Let's see. I get to go to strip clubs in a month. I can buy cigarettes. I'll be able to vote. Teehee. Lucky me, right after the presidential elections are OVER. -.-; What else? Nothing really, huh. I wish I had something to really look forward to. All of my college replies are coming around my birthday. I'm scared as hell.

^_^* YaY! I'm excited

Nick's coming to see me todaaaaay. Teehee. I'm not sure what we're going to do, though. I forgot to go check out a camera... Oh wait~! I think I have my other camera. . . SCORE!! ^___^ I'll just use that. PUheheheh. MMmmMMm.... Yummay~

I have that Secret Diary game that I subject everyone I know to, too. Haha. Yes yes. :GRIN:

^_^; I think I was just complaining about complaining

I love it!

The Search Queries are Getting Better

gumi bear
sanrio advertisements
"kristin manning"
mitsuwa grocery
ghetto booty picture
cal poly boobs
crackwhore carolyn
"won't you tell me baby b
pictures of ll cool j wit

Complaining

Complain complain complain. For some people, it seems to be a profession - for others, their way of living. Sometimes I can't stand the pessimism of others. Not naturally sarcastic, it's hard for me to understand why anybody would be continually upset about things. It irks my soul. Perhaps it's just PMS. I need a rest. -.-;

Strange are the things I read.

Chess SuperComputer "Deep Blue" beaten up by a more popular computer... I'm shocked!! The performa sucks!

Beautiful, Simply beautiful

My random web wanderings seem to have changed their course. Now, instead of looking at design pages and envying them, I look around for things that interest me... Eh... And beautiful men. I have to admit, that this is one of the best pictures I've found so far in the last week. I think I'm in love. ^_^



It's from Dezzie's page... A young gay asian male. I love that guy.

I dont see how "All you did was sleep"

When you stayed up until 5 AM the night before playing pool, karaoke-ing and all that stuff. -.- You deserve to be sick. Blech!!

I feel like Dougie Howser

I used to love that show... Especially the end, when he typed out the moral at the end of the day. I wonder what my moral is today. Friendship sucks. Don't empathize with anybody or else you'll hurt yourself.

On Friendship

Humans are so fake... In this respect... I find myself continually trying to renew old alliances that I knew have forever fizzled. But then, like a horse with blinds on, I push on and I push on, trying and trying... I should stop, but I know not how. I am not a civil creature by nature, but perhaps I enjoy sadistically pushing myself in these directions. Aish. I do not know. I understand myself less than I understand quantum physics. And boy, do I not understand that.

Empathy sucks

I hate being an empathetic person. I don't just pity someone, when I help someone with their problems, I begin to feel the way that I fancy they do. Sometimes, my feelings seem deeper than even the person that I am feeling for. I donno. Maybe I'm just emotionally stupid that way. It really does suck, though.

Uh-oh.. *Eye twitches*.. Damn Vibrator.

Click to get full info.

I seem to be looking at a lot men pictures lately

^_^* Check this one out ~~>

I'm definately impressed. Haha. :P Nothing beats the hot nick type mens tho... Well.. :P I'd like to think so.

I like the mens

I like the mens I like the mens. Haahaa... Anyhow. Just finished reading Pride and Prejudice. I don't know why everyone hates Mr. Darcy so much. I, for one, find him a charming type of fellow, of whom I had an immediate affinity to. Though he is rather particular, he is a man of his times, I believe. No one can blame him for disliking the country people's company at first.

Plus, Mr. Darcy is a sexy mofo... Plus, Fitzwilliam is a tight name. Down w/ Mr. Wickham.

This is why I jock the boxer briefs

Some things are so horrible, why don't they hit mainstream media?

U.S. Marine Arrested for Sexual Offense in Okinawa

By Associated Press

TOKYO — A U.S. Marine has been arrested in Okinawa for allegedly molesting a high school girl — the latest in a string of suspected sexual offenses by U.S. soldiers in Japan.

Cpl. Raven W. Gogol allegedly sneaked up on the 16-year-old girl as she sat by a flower bed in a northern Okinawan town on the night of Jan. 9, lifted the girl’s skirt, took photos and molested her, police said. Gogol, 21, has denied the indecency charges brought against him, police spokesman Takaharu Shimada said on Jan. 10.

Gogol was arrested after a police officer found him arguing with residents about the incident, Shimada said.

The U.S. military apologized after the Japanese government issued a request that it ensure that such incidents do not happen again.

“I apologize from the bottom of my heart. We will once again order thorough discipline,” Wallace Gregson, the U.S. military’s acting Okinawa area coordinator, was quoted as saying by the Foreign Ministry.

The arrest comes a week after the U.S. military lifted a late-night drinking ban on troops in Okinawa, a rule imposed five months ago to curb rowdiness and prevent crime.

Okinawans have long complained about crimes linked to the U.S. bases.

In 1995, two Marines and a Navy sailor raped a 12-year-old girl, sparking massive protests stemming from years of pent-up Okinawan anger at the U.S. military.

And then... I got more information about what happened to the girl in 1995...

They didn't just molest her. They raped her. There were four of them...one drove the car. She bled during the rape and they laughed at her tears. They also beat her.

Their mothers were mothers from hell. None of them thought their sons should be punished. One said her son just drove the car while the girl was raped. The mothers said the Japanese were just doing this because their sons were black.

They deserved the death penalty. Even the one that drove the car. During this time, another serviceman beat a Japanese girl to death a hammer. Because he brought the hammer with him...it looked premeditated.

I am pretty sick of sickos. All I can say is that the guy that pulled the girl's skirt up knows that many girls are very shy and don't even report this behavior. So, he gets away with it. My sentence to him would be worse than three strikes.

Word to the guy that wrote that.

Goat Silk

Bioengeneering has reached a new high/low, whatever you want to call it. I'm shocked to find that humans have gone so far! I'm amazed, yet shocked. When does the cloning stop? Sooner or later they are going to make animals with human genes... How many human genes does it take make it immoral to slaughter the animal?

Nick's Birthday Tomo

^_^* I hope he likes my cookies. Haha. I'm such a super duper dork. I swear, sometimes I wonder about myself. Anyhow, yeah I'm wondering if I should call him tomorrow to wish him a "Happy Birthday"... He's going to be snowboarding. . . ^_^* Maybe I'll call him at night, so that I don't catch him in a bad place or something. :) Haha. Or maybe I'll call him at 12AM tonight so I can be the first one to wish him a happy birthday. ^_^* Hahah. That would be super-kimish, huh?...

Yeup.... It's decided. I'm a dork.

I feel the same way, Michelle

^_^* I go to sleep at the randomest times.. hahaha... It's kinda like gambling. ^_~ We'll talk one of these days though.. I just know it! ;) I guess it's against our karma right now to talk or something. (=P~)

Religion Selector

What religion are YOU?.. Haha. Apparently I'm a Mahayana Buddhist: Includes diverse beliefs, various sects, schools, and trends. Main Mahayana sects include Pure Land and Zen. Vajrayana or Tantric Buddhism is often considered a separate branch. We focus here on some of the traditional elements of Mahayana Buddhism.

Not surprising. My family is super buddhist. What I mean by super buddhist? My mom has a 6 foot granite quan-am (woman buddha) in our back yard. the 3 different sitting buddhas 9(granite, only 3 feet tall)... A giant temple bell in the front (the stand is 7 ft i think, but the bell is about 1 ft diameter)... And just today she shaved her head for a 7 day sabbatical in which she lives like a buddhist nun/monk type person.

Plus she's a feng shui master. HAHAA

...I'm not quite so buddhist... But.. yeah.. o_O; some people get scared when they come to my house... I don't know whether it's the buddhas, the silver orbs that are all over the place, the 5 foot windchimes or the bell... Maybe it's the combination...

Asian Hate Crimes

All hate crimes bring me a certain feeling of sickness... Especially hate crimes towards gay and black students... However, Asian hate crimes hit a different cord... An eerie feeling that it could have been me... It's amazing how many hate crimes there are in the world. When I first started posting at AsianWired, I have to admit, I didn't really think Asian hate crimes really existed... I mean, I live in an area where almost everyone is a minority, and the worst hate is towards homosexuals. I have never experienced racism, myself... Or if I have, I haven't noticed it.

I find it so scary... I mean, what will happen when i go to college, you know? I'm planning on going to a UC...

^_^* Wow

Strangest thing happened this morning... I got an E-mail from Nick that made me cry... Haha... Am I just totally emotional lately? I don't know... But yeah... He said something along the lines that he would go home to get my cookies. (Awww!!)... Haha... i don't know... I guess that touched me... Among other things... ^_^* I wish he were here right now... I need a hug... And his always seem to feel the best.

New Desktop

In case you haven't noticed on the left side... Here's a quick link to my newest desktop.



MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD shoutouts to the guy that designed it. :) BTW. If this is your theme, please e-mail me, I want to marry you. ^_^

Lord of the Dance

Michael Flatley is my hero.

Inadvertant Poetry

kim (9:31:30 PM): i wish i had thick bushy eybrows
kim (9:31:33 PM): so that i could pluck them
kim (9:31:35 PM): into a shape
kim (9:31:39 PM): i have no eyebrows
kim (9:31:41 PM): so i cant pluck them
kim (9:31:44 PM): and they have no shape
kim (9:31:45 PM): i hate it
kim (9:31:54 PM): Wow
kim (9:31:57 PM): That's liek
Nonsensical Pi (9:31:57 PM): draw 'em
kim (9:31:58 PM): a poem

Faust

A very interesting man, that Faust. In case you didn't know, here's how the story goes...

Once, there was this dude named Faust and he was like a philosopherish type guy. He had pretty much learned all there was to learn... However, he had never experienced true happiness. So, one day, he idly says that he would do anything to feel true happiness... Blahblahblah, shit happens.. Basically he sells his soul to Mephisto, the devil for happiness... And when he finally does find true hapiness Mephisto comes to steal his soul, but then angels distract the devil and Faust's soul manages to escape.

So yeah.. That brings up the question, would you give everything, just to feel one moment of true happiness? And to know that it is true happiness?

I would give everything to be able to make somebody else feel true happiness... But I dont know about myself.

What Kind of Flirt are YOU?

According to Emode.com, I'm:

a Subtle Flirt. Utterly charming, you know how to have a little fun while remaining discreet. Were you just winking at us? We couldn't quite tell... In fact, we think it's pretty safe to say that you're a Subtle Flirt — you're a master of the flirting game. You know how to attract attention from anyone, any time. A quick come-hither smile, a little game of look-away-and-look-back-again — before long you have the object of your affection wrapped around your little finger. One of the best things about your approach is that it's discreet. You can always act innocent and coy if something gets taken out of context or misunderstood. Just make sure you're not too subtle, or you may end up playing the game all by yourself.

I'm not that subtle, though. ^_^* I wonder how that happened!! Haha. I'm pretty obvious, I think? I donno. hahaha. They just didn't ask me the right questions... hey! I answered that pick-up lines are a brilliant conversation starter!

I don't want to be subtle! ahha. ^_^**

Emode link courtesy of the shirt ninJAY.

Nakedness

Why is it that I feel more naked when I'm wearing slightly revealing clothes in public, than when I'm buck naked in my backyard? Hmm. The strangeness of the human mind.

Search Queries

I know my site is getting boring when the queries to my site begin to get boring. Aish! Must think of new shiznet!

Last 10 queries :
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"maid work"
ticklish "pictures"
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ticklish
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Sailor Moon roms
"kristin manning"

Correct Capitalization

For me, I notice that I lose attention very quickly when the person does not use capitals in correct spots. I'm not saying I like MyXeD KaPz, or anything, but seriously, does it hurt to hit the shift key once in a while? Or have a line break once in a while? I was reading this chick's blog, and it's like... Kinda interesting, but I can't keep reading, because there's too much in one spot and there aren't even capitalizations to make things look a little more split up...

And then, while reading blogs like this one, my interest is kept much more easily. There are clear breaks in paragraphs, and the capitalization is generally okay.

I wonder if the same happens to other readers. Perhaps I will pay a little more attention to my typish-penmanship.

I really *DID* Start Ray on it

For your information... I've had this since Blogger was just a little community on the 'net... BWHAHAHHAA! ^____^ I feel like such an old fogie type blogger. ^_^* I love this thing, though... Reading AND writing on it. There are so many interesting people, I don't believe I will ever tire of my voyeuristic viewing of other people's innermost thoughts.

But hey, they read mine, too. Right? ^_^ I think so... :) I hope to one day be a famous blogger. BWHAHAHAHA! Just kidding, just kidding, that would be kinda pathetic. Wait. I AM pathetic. ^_^*

Searching up MADPIMP online

This page has the same name as mine.. Hahaha freaky! I thought I was the only one audacious enough to take up MADPIMP. I should complain

This page and this page have me as a "free host"... GYEAH BOY! shh. :) don't tell them that I don't accept everyone! ;)
This is so amusing!

After a long, Windy day

It seemed almost surreal as I sat in my jacuzzi, looking up at the sky at 11PM. The moon was bright and clear, giving my body a bluish glow... Strange, how moonlight doesn't shine upon things, rather it gives a certain light that almost fools one into thinking it comes from the inside.

The jacuzzi was warm, and the wind was low... The sky was strangely bright... And I was just sitting there... Everything was so quiet.... And peaceful. I didn't even turn on the jets, for fear that I would disturb the moment. It's so rare to find such a quiet moment nowadays.

Ahhh, and how wonderful the hot hot water felt to my poor, strained legs. They definitely have that "I'm toning" type of ache... And though it might give me a measure of satisfaction, the ache is still rather annoying.

In the jacuzzi I can forget it all. Ahh. :) Off to the shower I go, now... Not good to sit here and type, all wet w/ nothing on but a bathrobe HAHA! o_O I'm such a weirdo.

Sigh

I think I've reached the "depressed" time of my month. haha. :P Damn the female body. It sucks, it sucks, it sucks. Days like these make me remember why I used to want to be a man. DOWN WITH WOMEN. That, and I used to think I was gay.

It's like my MoJo

Only it's my spunk! What's wrong with me?? :( College worries shouldn't be pulling me down like this! I'm not even there yet! Maybe it's the company I keep. I don't know. All I know is that I want my spunk back! Grar!! I want to take sticker pictures every weekend!! I want to run around screaming!! I want to come to school wearing nothing but a smile!... Okay, it's too cold for that, but you know what I mean..

I just want to be different!... I don't know.. I guess all this year I've been trying my hardest to fit in with everybody... My mom, especially wanted me to start fitting in.. But I think at the same time, I've tried to suppress myself too much... In the wrong type of way... I mean.. I can be spontaneous and not be a freako, rai?... Right!... Aish. I don't know what to do. :(

And the thing is like... I don't want to THINK about any of the things I could do spontaneously, beause that would be PLANNING to be spontaneous, which ... well... defeats the purpose. Narf.. Sigh..

I've lost spontenaity

I used to do things at a whim. Now, I'm just a follower... A planner. -.- I want to do something out there for once! ARGH! I feel closed in!! ;_;

Kids on Love

^_^* Wow! Hahha.. I was reading this on Michelle's site.. It's SOOO CUTE!! Hhahhah.. THey totally sound like something that I would have said when I was younger. HahHA.

Sharing computer quirks

aBsoLuT tRt (9:28:56 PM): and then once
aBsoLuT tRt (9:29:38 PM): windows on reboot kept on tryng to install oriental pleasures and "installation components missing"
aBsoLuT tRt (9:29:43 PM): hahah my god that was soo weird
kimtoxication (9:30:10 PM): HahAHahHAa
kimtoxication (9:30:12 PM): o_O
aBsoLuT tRt (9:30:21 PM): i don't know where that came from
aBsoLuT tRt (9:30:21 PM): haha
kimtoxication (9:30:27 PM): SUuuuRe you don't

I found out the single most scary screen in the entire world today. I alway sthought that the scariest screen was the blue screeen of death right before i saved on a long session of adobe photoshop. Au contraire mon cherie... Au contraire... the scariest screen is "error loading litestep.exe. you must reinstall windows"... right after you install a new litestep build.

I was like HOLY FUCK... But then I remembered, it was just windows... so i went into dos... or tried to. I kept pressing f10. -.- That's what it was on my old computer. But it would work!! So then with help, I finally used f8! ;_;, and suddenly Bammo! safe mode/config screen. Phew!

It was SOOOOOO scary! I thought i was gong to die! It's like my computer was having a heart attack and I was living vicariously...

While Blogger is down

Teehee.. I'm just going to write everything in notepad, so this will all probably become one giant chunk of a blog. ^_^* All good.. Hahahah. I'll be entertained, at least!

Resemblances...

People say my hairlooks like Faye Valentine (Cowboy Bebop) w/out the headband... And that I have a personality like Meryl (Trigun).. Vash is hot, so I'm down w/ that. ^_^* I donno... ahhaa.. When I was younger, i looked like Average Asian Girl. o_O whoa... weird, hUh? Yeah... I don't know... I wish I looked like somebody famous sometimes... That would be cool, but then.. ^_^* I wouldn't have my own identity, because everyone would associate the other person with me... That would be the bad part hehe.

Talk about a bad new year!

Check out this guy's new year... :P

How's your 2001 so far?

Mine's been a helluva (hey, new word for me!) ride so far, sit there and be astonished, just don't leave your mouth too wide open for too long lest Free Birdie's gonna ram something in there, he, he:

Around the first week of the year, two days after I arrive from X'mas vacation, my roommate's found dead. Two bottles of vodka by his side. The guy had an alcohol problem and basically drank himself to death. What's f*ckin' freakin' me out is that he might've actually been dead the night I arrived home. He gets drunk a lot and when he does he's very nasty so we just leave him alone. The night I came home I assumed he was drunk yet again so I left him alone in his room. It was my landlord who discovered his body the next day. Thank goodness I did what I did, otherwise, his corpse would've been my greeting for 2001!

Around a couple of days later, within days of each other, I witnessed 2 vehicles engulfed in flames in the streets of Manhattan.

Then there was the time two guys were beating each other up with metal bars while a lady (who I presume they knew) kept screaming. This was during rush hour. Again, Manhattan. Then just last weekend, I saw a rather bizaare scene, two college type Asian guys wrestling a homeless-ish white man on the ground, by the sidewalks. They were just there, struggling with each other. But that's not the most bizaare part. Afterwards, they just stopped, probably got tired, and went their way, almost as if nothing happened.

Then, my job. Our co. recently laid off a good number of people. The process was swift, the people were out within hours. My manager was almost on the verge of tears when she announced it. Or so I was told. Oddly enough, I was out sick the same day this whole drama unfolded. By the time I came back, a lot of the cubicles were empty.

Want to have a new desktop

This Faye Valentine one just isn't working out for me... Too bland, too bland!! ^_^* It's exactly like myold one, only with a different desktop picture. Blech.. Who likes THAT? o_O I've had this one for too long. I'm thinking either dark magenta or dark green for this one... Hmmm.. Maybe blue... I haven't had a "dark" desktop for a while...^_^* I'm a nerd, aren't I?

D'oh!

:( I sent Nick's b-day present to his house, rai? 'Cuz he usually goes home on the weekends, but DAYUM! Hahha! THIS weekend he's not going home~... ;_; NANI?! What if they rot? Aiiee! Maybe I should tell him to tell his parents to eat them.. But maybe his parents won't want to eat them.. They taste good though!! Wahh! There's a giant heart shaped one. ^_^* i'm so bad at cooking! But yeah. POOooOo!!! Poo poo poo!

This makes me angry. Hahah. I even sent my letter to his house. -.-

Baked Cookies today

I'm really bad at gauging the size of my cookies... They always come out.. bite sized. ;_;

Cut my Hairs

My mom always cuts my hair for me, in the backyard. Normally we do it nude... HAHA! Sounds strange, but it keeps hair from sticking to all our clothes... Unfortunately, this time I got news right when I was about to cut my hair, my friend was coming over!! Hah. We solved this problem though... Whipping out our raincoats, a bright blue metallic raincoat for my mom, and a yellow disneyland poncho for me, we managed to keep our clothes on and clean at the same time. :P And not embarassing all of us.

My hair is super short now, though!! It's about half an inch higher than my ear in the back!! Craaaazy!! :P I gotta take a picture of it.... The slant is like.. 45 degrees now.. HELLA tight.:D

Watched Rush Hour Last Night

I find myself singing to War, and saying "NOW YOU SEE HOW DIFFICULT I AM!! AHH HAHAHAHA" . :T... Am I strange? HUA! WAR! What is it good for? Absolutely naaathing! HUA! GOOD GOD, yaaaawwwl. ^_^* Anyhow.

I have also just discovered the most amazing new treat. They're called "sour belts"... Mmmm.. They make your eyes water, but it's gooooooooood!! You guys should try some. "Sour belts"... You can get them at your average AMC theater.

RIBON is the BOMB

Ribon gives the best gifts inside the magazine! During the winter months, one of the gifts was a tissue box.... Fancy that! A tissue box! They know girls get sick during the winter and we'll need tissues... And what better way to enjoy a cold than with RIBON? =D and then, this month, for february, they gave us a whole set of stationery!! For writing love letters! ^___^ They know exactly what we need, huH?... Yep... I remember for the new year last year, they gave out check books and calenders (Check books for keeping all your christmas/newyear moolah in place!)... Gyeah... They kick ass.

Strange Happenings

Wow, Michelle, I've been reading your blog all this time and I never knew that you were Nick's co-worker!! It's so hilarious... Ne.. I was reading your e-mail and I was like... *Jaw drop..* "Jigga WHA?"... But that's coo. :P

Ahh, Yes.

One of the bad things about having friends who either read, or know where to get to my blog is that, sometimes, I hold back. I mean, there are so many people I can talk crap about, but I don't ... Because I'm afraid of discovery. Is that right? I don't know. I haven't blogged the last couple days because of this. I mean, there's a lot of stuff I could say, but I'm afraid if I say it, they'll find out.

Aish. I'm going to get breakfast. It's too early to think.

Tired of being Ignored

With the exception of a couple people, feels like these days I'm being completely ignored. I'm used to being passed over once or twice... But this is straight up ignoring. I find myself saying something to someone... And then repeating it... And then repeating it again, and then getting a "Sorry, I wasn't paying attention to you."

Gee, thanks. That makes me feel great. I've found myself saying "just forget it..." a lot the last week. I don't know what's up. Is my voice so annoying that people have just tuned it out? Have I become a background noise, like a car passing by or the humming of the computers?

Aish. I'm not used to being background.

February

I can't believe it's already Feb. It's so crazy. This year has gone by faster than any other years I've experienced.

Went to the video store today

Couldn't rent anything. I'm under 18. BOOO!!! One and a half months and I'll be able to rent things by myself. Aiiish.