I had an oldies battle with my friend last night... and he won... Sigh... I feel so.. young.. and new founded. Grrr.

Katie is lovely. I think she's one of the only people I can truly make fun of people with. Others just don't understand our humour.

people think that this is a good poem:

Once I thought I was original,
But then I realized I took the thought,
Once I thought I was individual,
But individuality is not what I sought,
Once I thought friendship had meaning,
But even this is not what it seems,
Once I had many goals gleaming,
Now they seem like distant dreams,
All I have worked for seems a sham,
No body really gives a damn,
Except for you, my light,
Who came to me in the dark night,
Took away the cold, removed the blight,
Took away the dark, restored my sight,
I thank you for making me smile,
Letting me love you,
All this while,
I thank you with all my soul,
And I wait for the day I can have you for my own. :-)

I painted my nails clear today. THey're kinda long now... I dont know whether or not to cut them . It feels funny when I type, and I make a lot of typos ... but yeah.. Heh... I think it makes me look a little girlier. At least they're not all jenky and scraggly. From all my typing they're worn down to like a roundish flattish shape. HAHA wierd. I'll take a picture of it.

Dah! Don't you hate it when you think you've finished everything and you find out that you have another shitload of stuff todo? Grr.. I have an oral report and a goddamn test in French tomorrow. Maybe I should study. Nah.

Good day today. Aish. Dont feel like typing. Turned in UC Essay. Will be like neanderthal for the next week.

Nick = Toocute.

imv eryt ICKlISH (9:17:18 PM): Just get a 2 on that exam
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:17:29 PM): or i'll kick your ass so hard you won't knokw which way is up
lytePinoy (9:17:32 PM): ;-)
lytePinoy (9:18:01 PM): =-O
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:01 PM): ^_^ Ok im going to block you now until tuesday oK?
lytePinoy (9:18:06 PM): uh oh
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:12 PM): :P
lytePinoy (9:18:19 PM): NOoooooo
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:22 PM): Uh huh..
lytePinoy (9:18:28 PM): dont block me
lytePinoy (9:18:39 PM): cuz cuz what if i wanna say hi
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:43 PM): Oh ... oh yeah
lytePinoy (9:18:47 PM): or sweet dreams
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:48 PM): =T well..
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:51 PM): well...
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:18:51 PM): OK
-----WEAK!!!----
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:19:00 PM): Im just not going to takl to you right now
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:19:07 PM): =T
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:19:11 PM): Go study
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:19:23 PM): I have to work anyway
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:00 PM): >MuAh<
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:05 PM): I'll miss you. ^_^
lytePinoy (9:20:23 PM): miss ya more
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:29 PM): :P
lytePinoy (9:20:31 PM): and yes GO STUDY!
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:42 PM): Heheh i have a book report on monday and i just picked a book
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:48 PM): ^_^*
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:20:58 PM): wooo wooo go ghetto booty
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:21:00 PM): Okee
imv eryt ICKlISH (9:21:02 PM): i go
lytePinoy (9:22:04 PM): yes you GO ghetto booty

Auto response from imv eryt ICKlISH (9:22:04 PM): Working... on app.. or book report.. or something like that. =T sigh.

lytePinoy signed off at 9:37:25 PM.
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lytePinoy (10:52:41 PM): Kim's dead sexy!

Auto response from imv eryt ICKlISH (10:52:41 PM): mmm... people who have work to do shouldn't be online. ;-)

lytePinoy (10:52:52 PM): oh ok :-(

=T My friend told me once that I'm the type who's going to marry a distinguished looking asian guy with glasses and a part on the side. Pleaaaaase let that not be true!! >_< Heavens have mercy on me!

I have come. I have seen. I have conquered. Now I just need to do some work.

I am a master piano player. I have a humungous ass. I'm a volunteering capitalist. I'm an entrepreneuring princess. I'm a countless number of things.. But I will never become a college student.

How's that for a college essay.

"You're priceless to me" my friend says. I think what he means is that he can talk to me for free.

Bah... $10... I'm worth more than $10. :(

YAY.. I'm scared! What if I dont get sold?

I'm such a moron. I still haven't changed my clock, so this morning I woke up an hour early. HAHA!

Simply irresistable, that is you.. That is me...

WHOA! It's a Nickish binder!

Hmmm here be some more random pictures of me... HEHE!

If I can do THIS with my tongue.. What ELSE can I do?


I'm not REALLY deep in thought.. I'd just like to THINK so..


Me in my turtleneck... Yipes! It's cold out there!


Yay! i love pictures!

Ever wonder what my computer table looked like? :D well.. Here it is! With my friend Kristin manning the base.


Here's the scene BEHIND me as I sit here and type this!... i'm the one in white. ^_^


YAY! I'm cool. :P

strange... All my posts for the last 3 days have been deleted. Bah... That sucks.. Oh well. Senior project SUCKS! I'll be back.

I have a big butt and I cannot lie!


This is my favorite shirt!


I'm going for a power puff girl look


Don't piss me off!


My butt looks deformed here. HAHA! that was my first try. :P BEFORE I tried the assmaster2000

Hahahhaha there we go!! :D more to come soon probably!

Yesterday, on a whim, I took a picture of my butt. That was pretty funny. I haven't been able to post it yet because my computer is being rather buttish and is kicking me in the ass. :T I'm at school right now. Rather pathetic, considering it is 3:49 PM. SiGh. I need to get a life.

Sometimes, I really hate school. Other times, I want to burn it down then spit on it.

Sleep always does the body good. I feel simply marvelous! I only have one class today. :) Fancy that.

Repeat after me: Kim = Dork that worries too much. Hahaha... I'm just going to go to bed. and when i wake up today... I'll be all better. I DO take things too seriously....

Ashish thinks I"m really weird I think...

AViJ 1 [12:44 AM]: well...just dont take everything too seriously
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: need sleep
AViJ 1 [12:44 AM]: thats all im sayin
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: yeah
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: heheheh
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: i tink
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: this might be my karma
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: a lot of guys took me seriously before
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: and i thought we were just chllin around yanno
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: but then like yeah
Pimpmistress [12:44 AM]: i hurt them bad
AViJ 1 [12:44 AM]: ..oh
AViJ 1 [12:44 AM]: well
Pimpmistress [12:45 AM]: maybe ugly Fate is coming back to give me a slap on the ass
AViJ 1 [12:45 AM]: Um...Suure...
AViJ 1 [12:45 AM]: anywayz, im gonna head off to sleep too

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My wit has gone unappreciated.

I think I've figured out why I have such bad luck with guys... I mean.. What attracts themthe most at first is that I seem like such a strong, independant person... But the second you get to know me I'm a sniveling, whining, leeching bitch.

"ETS didn't give me the score I wanted when I took the SAT in 1999. Can I demand a recount? Maybe I filled in some circles wrong."
-- My friend Arjel.

Hahahha the best quote I've heard in a while. :) I DEMAND A RECOUNT!

WOW! A positive tarot reading??!! Shocking.

What exists between Nick and me? The center of the Celtic Cross (NOT SHOWN) is the card you have chosen to represent yourself.
QUEEN OF CUPS -- Good, fair woman, honest, devoted. She is loving intelligence with the gift of vision. Success, happiness, pleasure, wisdom, virtue, a perfect spouse and a good mother
I reallydidn't know what to pick. I was like.. Uhh.. That one's purdy. :)

The first card you have chosen has been placed on top of your card. This is the card that covers you and it represents the general atmosphere regardings your query.
THE DEVIL -- Violence, vehemence, force, fatality
Awww... I feel violent against Nick? That's sad...

The second card (NOT SHOWN) is placed horizontally across the current two cards. This card represents opposing elements (for good or evil) surrounding your query.
KING OF PENTACLES (reversed) -- Vice, weakness, ugliness, perversion and peril
I'm weak. :( I'm ugly. :( I'm perverted. Wow.. They've got me covered!

The third card, the card beneath, represents the basis of your query; this is something already a part of the experience.
THE TOWER (reversed) -- Oppression, imprisonment, tyranny
Have I been oppressing him? Tyrannizing ? I hope not. I probably have though.

The fourth card, the card behind, represents an element that is just coming to pass or has just pass.
TEN OF CUPS (reversed) -- The false heart, indignation, violence
False heart... :T That's exactly why I asked... I dont think he likes me the way I like him....

The fifth card, the card that crowns, represents a possible aspect of the future. This is not a card of certainty.
TWO OF RODS -- The sadness of wisdom amidst the chaos of the world. Riches, fortune, magnificence
Aww man.. ANd I wanted to be magnificent, too.

The sixth card, the card before, represents strong aspects of the future surrounding your query.
THE HANGED MAN -- Wisdom, introspection, meditation, sacrifice, intuition, prophecy
Introspection... Like my domain? Hahhaa... Sacrifice... Intuition?... Sigh... If only I had a clearer view of what they're asking of me. :(

With the seventh card begins the view into the deeper aspects of your situation. This card represents your fears, negative feelings or other uncertainties.
KNIGHT OF CUPS -- Arrival, approach, as of a messenger. Advances, invitation, incitement
Hahha.. Advances? to me or to him? Probably more to him.. :P

The eighth card represents your family's (or close friends') influence or opinions. Think of this as the close external forces.
THE WORLD -- Assured success, change, flight, the road of life, the dance of life
I seem self-assured? I would have never guessed. ^_~

The next to last card represents your hopes and desires. The forces you are currently adding (conscious or otherwise).
THE SUN -- Material happiness, contentment, fortune, marriage
Hahhahha... That's good.

The last card brings together the entire reading. This card represents the final outcome of your query.
PAGE OF RODS -- A faithful man, a lover, an envoy, a messenger
Hahhaha!!... If only I could hope...

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Too bad Tarot cards aren't for real... :P It does make me feel rather better though. Thank god for the supernatural. HAHA

Haha.. Chris Lee style--

Mountain Brothers - Love Poetry: Because it was one of the first things we ever talked about. I sent it to him over AIM... and dedicated it to him.

Ginuwine - Simply Irresistable: He made me feel so sexy. ^_^*

Destiny's Child - Perfect Man: I was too shy to talk to him the first time I saw him... And then like a miracle, he found me...

Blackstreet - Think About you: Because I think about him all the time.

Joe - All the things: He once quoted a verse from it.... And it was his favorite slow song...

Joe - I Wanna Know: Because I was listening to it the first time I talked to him.

Jodeci - Freakin' You: He loves Jodeci.

Sisqo - You are Everything: Cuz he is...

LL Cool J - Hey Lover: Because he quoted a verse from it that made me melt. :)

Tony Rich Project - Missin You: It just does.

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I shouldn't let it affect me. After all, it's not like we were ever together. It still stings, though. I haven't liked someone this much in so long. Why can't I just stop? I've tried so many times... But it doesn't work.

Nick looks kinda weird here.. Hahahahha... As opposed to the nick I'm used to, at least...

cute.

I resurrected an old journal site of mine... http://kim.azian.nu .. It's strange seeing it up again. Personally, I find that site rather amusing. It makes me want to make this one into a C++ layout. Hmm.

I just came back from dinner with my friend Kim and her brother.

Over the past few years i've heard so much about her brother, yet I've never met him.... Tonight, though, I found myself sitting next to Kim and across from this guy that I had heard so much about. It was strange. He was so much like Kim that I felt I had known him for a long time.

I am officially freaked out. ;)

Looking down at that last comment totally reminds me of the tiem Nick wrote in my blog... Ahahhaa.. what sweet memories.

I wish I still wrote as much.

kim's butt itches

I've decided i hate computers.

Dah. I'm relaly having problems with all my servers lately. I should have read my horoscope. -.-

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so different. Am I just different on the outside? Or am I different on the inside as well? I don't FEEL so different... but how do I stand out so much from the general public? Am I really that "hyper" ? Why do I always feel tired, then? My tired state is other people's hyper? Do I really live in another world that I don't know about? Boo.

I miss Katie.

Sigh.. My thingie isn't working.

I'm... so... damn.. sexy.

Have you ever had one of those days where everything goes wrong... And then at the end, you contemplate killing yourself, but then decide not to, because you think... "Oh, tomorrow can't get any worse..." That's the way my week has been... And nothing has gotten better... Only worse.

The saddest part is that I don't think anybody understands what I mean. I mean... They always say "Aww.." and offer me their pity... But most people don't even know what it's like... To want to die..that is..

I have to memorize Hamlet Soliloquy #4 (Act 3, Scene 1)... It makes me ponder my life even more.

DAH DAAAAAAAAAAAAH ,.... WHO THE HELL IS MY PRESIDENT?!?!?!

Scandalous. Hahaha. DAMN YOU FLORIDIANS!! *Eyes Katie* I know you're behind this. ;) HAHAHA! Just playin!

Here's a disturbing picture:

Can you believe that is me, from four years ago? Me... With long hair? Strange things happen. I don't know why I look so different... (That.. as opposed to me now..)

Geez.... Why did I look so much older back then?. Probably because I was more depressed. Haha. I used to think I knew the answer to the world... And the answer was void.

Shit. I'm definitely sick. I hate my frail immune system. I knew i should have worn my huge ugly sweater. I have so many big ugly sweaters. All the other girls just wear dainty little body coverings that dont even count as real sweaters... more like long sleeved shirts than sweaters... Yet they dont seem cold, and don't get sick... Me? I wear so much clothes I look fat... And I still get sick.

I hate bronchitis. There hasn't been one year in the last 5 years that I haven't gotten bronchitis (I didnt get over from the time I caught it last november until just this last august!)..

I can feel bronchitis coming on. Its like in one of those horror movies when you see the killer and you see the girl standing with her back to him... and you know he's coming and you're like "NO NO!! DONT LOCK THE DOOR!"... But she does it anyway?... It's the same feeling.

And so here I am. Out here in the cold. Shivering. With barely any clothes on. Feeling like shit. And still shivering more. But am I getting up? No. Of course not. I want to finish typing my blog entry.

I feel rather feverish and sick. I need a hug, I think. Or maybe just some assurance that someone cares. You know, that's the saddest part... I don't even think Nick knows how much I care for real... And if he does.. I dont think he really cares in return. Haha. The cruel ironies of life. Maybe I should just tear my own entrails apart so that I will be the same inside as I am inside.

I read some disturbing news today. A friend of a friend of mine (with whom i'm a fairly good acquaintence of) quit CAL to be with his girlfriend. It was pretty shocking.

Now, I don't know about anyone else... But -- however romantic -- I find that rather stupid. Awesome, amazing, commendable in bravery and conviction of his love... But rather idiotic. I mean... His future could be on the line right there.

Plus.. What of his girlfriend.. Does she not love him enough to care what he might be paying in order to be with her?

The sacrifice he made was bigger than the separation that would temporarily keep them apart, I feel.

However... Maybe I've just never felt love as strongly. This reminds me of a scene from "Sayonara", where Marlon Brando is talking to one of his men out of marrying a japanese girl. He tells his friend that he "would never give up [his] citizenship for ANY girl"... His friend simply replied, "Well, Ace, maybe that's cuz you don't feel as strongly about your girl as I do mine.".

It makes me wonder if I could ever be a fool for love. Maybe I already have been. You tell me.

I realize it's been a rather long time since I've spoken about Nick. Well, okay, not very long. Probably about a day or so -- but, for me, that seems relatively long.

My mom is planning a trip to hawaii this winter vacation and she told me that I could invite anyone I wanted, girl or guy to hang out with me while we were there. Of course, my natural reaction was to ask Nick.

The funniest part was that I was nervous in asking him. I must have typed the question out a million times before actually sending it! He didn't think me too weird, though... Asking him to come with me... At least I hope not.

The most exciting part: he said he might come!

Of course... He'd probably have problems getting his parents to agree. :( That's most unfortunate... It would have been so perfect!.

Aish. He's amazing.

Sometimes I wonder if my friendship with Carolyn ever meant anything to her. I mean... It's so strange, you know? We used to be so close, but then suddenly over the course of a few months, we became completely distant. The funny part is -- I dont even know if she notices.

It's difficult for me to admit that I did care for her as a friend... But then, how could I not? We did everything together!... Times change, though... I suppose.

I wish it didn't.

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I managed the polls today... That was interesting. I was lead by an extremely stupid woman named R_____... Yes. That is her real name. Strange, isn't it?

I got in trouble several times for talking about politics inside the poll room.

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I have a lot of homework due tomorrow, but I'm not going to do it. I really don't care too much -- even though I'm floundering in half my classes.

Speaking of floundering, I should start my USC application.

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I obtained an interesting quote from my math teacher yesterday.... "If you do not remember this, it is your job to refer to whatever it is to refer to to refresh your memory".. All this said in a heavy Russian accent. I found it rather hilarious. However, I was the only one with enough wits in my class to realize what she had said.

Sometimes I wonder if a lot of people don't go through life completly clueless, just accepting everything anyone says.

Most of the time, it is that kind of person that asks the dumbest questions.

Like... "Why isn't the number negative when you multiply two negative numbers together?".

I cringe. These people are allowed to drive and vote, and I'm not?

Blasphemy.

I'm being rather liberal with the line breaks.

I like it that way.

Good Night.

IM BLACK AND IM PROUD IM BLACK AND IM PROUD!

I still haven't started my 8 page essay. This is hecka whack. Hahha.. I'm probably the worst procrastinator in the world. Oh well. I dont' care. GR.

I have this bowl... and it has a cabbage patch kid at the bottom with its arms outstretched coming from a cabbage with a great big smile. It always encourages me to eat my entire meal justso i can see how happy it is to see me finish.

Beautiful analogy of life? Or an observation. I'll let you decide.

Look at these three cutie pies! :) Wow.. My first time really getting along with Vietnamese people!! IM SOO AMAZED! hehehe.. From left to right is me, nick, and minh. Nick's pretty cool. So is Minh, even though he makes fun of me for being gullible. I think I just have an affinity to guys named Nick now. I wonder why. HMMMM. ;)

Life is good.

I ate meat today. At least I think I did -- I'm actually not too sure because my friend said it was fake bacon. But oh well. I ordered it. I ate it. i didn't realise it would have bacon on it.. -- who ever orders SALAD thinking that there will be meat in it? ..

Not I.

Foolish me, I suppose.

The Chem SATII kicked my ass. It didn't just kick my ass. It picked me up, threw me across the room, beat me to a pulp and then SPIT on my entrails. That's how bad it was. Yeah. Apparently I suck at chem. Even though I am the only one with an A in that class. How pathetic is that? We must REALLY suck.

On the brighter side. I watched Shakespeare in Love! it was a really sweet, romantic movie. I was so impressed at the way that they mixed all the lines together...

Though... I haven't heard so many different names for boobs in a long time... Bosom.. Apples.. Puppies... Wow. hahaa.

I have an 8 page essay to write by monday. Anyone hardup for some cash?

I hate women. I really do. Women are the bane of my existance. Without women, I would have no problems. They should have never let a woman be a captain on Star Trek. Now they have a false sense of confidence and equality. Women SUCK.

My mom and her friend are ranting about men. I wonder if I'm going to sound like that when I'm older. I wonder if I sound like that now. I probably do... after all.. You DO become your parents. Uh-oh. I'm gonna be an endless nag?... Damn.

Life. What is wrong with my life? What is right with my life. I'm considering writing about my crackhead mom. But then it would become the "complaining" essay. Gag me.

Sometimes I want to die. Just take a bunch of pills, slit my wrists and die. But then, I realize I'm too lazy to go buy pills and am too scared of pain to slit myself. Bah. Maybe I should jump off the overpass.

SAT II's again tomorrow. I am in a completely defunct state right now. I feel as if nothing I will ever do will let me into college. Ah. I guess I'll just end up going to Cal Poly. :T Niall and Chris Chang will be there. John Yang too, I suppose that is comforting.

Ok. Not really. But hey... I can pretend I want to go there, right?

:crying:

November. I sit here and try to think of a subject for my college essay. Yes. My essay. What can I write about? There is nothing about me that I am passionate about enough to base my whole future upon. I mean: how in the world can somebody base my entire life on something they took 2 minutes to read? I do not know.

Sigh. Break time. Must jet.