Hahah Funny E-mail of the moment

Subj: HI
Date: 4/29/01 7:23:12 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Mike308savage
To: Pimpmistress

SORRY I DIDNT GET RIGHT BACK.PLEASE FORGIVE ME CHRISTINA. I MISS YOU SWEETIE,PLEAS DONT IGNORE ME. I CARE ALOT ABOUT YOU,PLEASE TALK WITH ME.

Gosh, I never knew my name was Christina.... O_o;

So My Mom and I were watching BAYWATCH : Hawaii!

And I'm like... "Damn! That guy is HOT!"

My mom says, "No he's not, he looks like Nick."

Of course, I indignantly reply "He looks nothing like Nick~!"

-.- "You're right" she says "He's way better looking"

Damnit...You tell me, does this guy look like Nick?

Exhausted

Wow... A new blog layout... Gee! It's really ugly! Hahaa.. But that's OK. This will prove to be as temporary as the others that have gone up.

Talked on the phone to Nick last night... Realised how much I've missed him during the last couple weeks... But then realised for the first time that he's not really some gigantic part of my life... But a really enjoyable part.. ^_^; Like a candy or something... I mean, I don't need candy to survive, but I love to eat it! :P.. I don't know... I guess I'm happiest when I'm coddling somebody, but Nick isn't really the need to be coddled type, so sometimes I feel kind of left out of his life... It's all good though ^_^ Gives me more time to learn how to study!

Hah... I was angry at myself when I was talking to him last night, though... For some reason I couldn't think of anything to say... It made me so angry because for the last couple weeks every time something interesting happened, I would make a mental note to myself, but then poof.. haha it just all disappeared.

Fresh Choice Night

When inviting non-CSF friends to Fresh Choice Night, a strange realization occured. I have no friends that aren't in CSF that live around here that are under 22. Either that, or I'm not looking hard enough. Bleh...

Argh. Note to self

Never EVER drive on the left side of the road.

Weird

Throughout this whole year I've seen blogs come and go, and the only ones that seem to really stay alive consistantly are us OG bloggers haha... Like Percy and Katie... ^_^*, well them and the shirt ninJAY (listed on the side)... I guess it's because of addicts like us that blogger's so popular. ^_^ I actually feel kinda special. Especially as my little archive list gets longer...and longer... and longer.. :P~

This is great stuff...

Found it in the mail today

Dear Fellow Americans...

America has engaged in some finger wagging lately because California doesn't have enough electricity to meet its needs. The rest of the country (including George W. Bush's energy secretary Spencer Abraham, who wants Californians to suffer through blackouts as justification for drilling for oil in Alaska's Arctic National Wildlife Refuge) seems to be just fine with letting Californians dangle in the breeze without enough power to meet their needs. They laugh at Californians' frivolity.

Well, everybody. Here's how it really is: California ranks 48th in the nation in power consumed per person. California grows more than half the nation's fruit, nuts and vegetables. We're keeping them. We need something to eat when the power goes out. We grow 99 percent or more of the nation's almonds, artichokes, dates, figs, kiwifruit, olives, persimmons, pistachios, prunes, raisins and walnuts. Hope you won't miss them.

California is the nation's number one dairy state. We're keeping our dairy products. We'll need plenty of fresh ones since our refrigerators can't be relied upon. Got milk?

We Californians are gonna keep all our high-tech software in state. Silicon Valley is ours, after all. Without enough electricity, which you're apparently keeping for yourselves, we just plain don't have enough software to spare.

We're keeping all our airplanes. California builds a good percentage of the commercial airliners available to fly you people to where you want to go. When yours wear out, you'd better hope Boeing's Washington plant can keep you supplied. There isn't enough electricity here to allow us to export any more planes than we need ourselves.

And while we're at it, we're keeping all our high-tech aerospace stuff, too, like the sophisticated weapons systems that let you sleep at night, not worried you might wake up under the rule of some foreign kook.

Oh, yeah, and if you want to make a long-distance call, remember where the satellite components and tracking systems come from. Maybe you could get back in the habit of writing letters.

Want to see a blockbuster movie this weekend? Come to California. We make them here. Since we'll now have to make them with our own electricity, we're keeping them. Even if we shot them somewhere else, the labs, printing facilities, editing facilities, and sound facilities are all here.

Want some nice domestic wine? We produce over 17 million gallons per year.

We'll need all it to drown our sorrows when we think about the fact that no matter how many California products we export to make the rest of America's lives better, America can't see its way clear to help us out with a little electricity. You can no longer have any of our wine.

You all complain that we don't build enough power plants. Well, you don't grow enough food, write enough software, make enough movies, build enough airplanes and defense systems or make enough wine.

Love, The Californians

Sigh

I find it troublesome to talk about my feelings out loud. I really want to talk about things to somebody right now... But I guess I don't have anybody to talk to. Except for my mom. But she's so easily excitable that I can't really spill all to her, you know... Hahaha. I guess it's time for me to meet new people so I can spill my heart out to them without being afraid that they'll run away from me. Or... Even if they do it doesn't matter because they've served their purpose. :( I have this horrible fear of talking to my friends because I'm afraid if I say something wrong then they'll turn away from me. I guess that defeats the purpose of having a friend... But yeah. =T Thats the way it is. Damn. Why is it so damn hard to be close to people?

Baggage

I guess I do come with a lot of baggage. Sigh. I guess that's what has made me into this horrible monstropolous crazy cool monster I am today. Hehe. I can't say i regret any of it. I mean, I love who I am the way I am, so I guess since all the stuff that I've had to go through in my life has helped to shape me I don't mind. Haha. Anyway, I think everyone comes with just as much baggage-- they just aren't as liberal with their feelings as I am.

I want school to be over and summer to begin. Even with summer school, I find summer so trouble free and careless. It's so much simpler than my life as it is right now. AP tests start in a week. Ahhhhhh. >_< Why me. hah.

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Funny how I can cry
And not know why
I can want to die
And not know why
It's the opposite of love
And yet I can't let go
It's the horrible deeds
And I just want to know
Why me why me
What did I do what could I have done better
I'm sorry I didn't practice more
My fingers were too sore
To pound out another note
I'm sorry if the words I wrote
Weren't enough to earn an A
But daddy why do you have to hit me that way?
I'm sorry that I'm so little And that I get sick a lot
I didn't mean to catch cold that day
But daddy why did you take my insurance away
And I couldn't go to the hospital
Because we had no money to pay...
I'm sorry I didn't pick to be born to you
What in the world can I do
But take my brother in
When he shows up at my door
Why did you have to push him away
' Daddy, we're your children, why do you treat us that way...

Ahaha. ode to daddy-o. I hate that guy.

...Ahh If I have any mental issues

I can now know to blame it wholly on my father. I hate my father, I really do. I love how he treats his children like shit and people who aren't his children even worse. Like when my half brother came to visit me and my father realised my half brother had snuck away from him to see me and he banned him from our house. Or how I never even knew I had a half brother in the first place until he showed up at my house one day. He's 27 you know.

Ahh and now I'm 18. Finally rid of him, right? Not. The child support ended... But thus begins the battle for my college. He's supposed to pay half. I wanted a lump sum of 8,000 per year. HE wants a lump sum of 20,000 for all four years. Ha. What a dad what a dad.$20,000 barely pays for all my car costs (If you count the price of the car, $8,000 + the $2000 a year for the insurance). And that's supposed to pay half my college for the next four years. Thanks a lot daddy-o. I should have gone to USC like I promised him a long time ago.

Sometimes I just don't care anymore. You know. He's getting remarried. Lovely isn't it. I hope he doesn't breed. He'll just create more worthless crap. Haha. I'm ashamed to be half worthless crap. Maybe a whole worthless crap. Sometimes I wonder about myself. Damn. To be torn. Tormented and and wrenched apart from the inside by this insidous link called DNA.

I guess he wasn't a bad father. To me that is... I mean he didn't hit me until I bled like he hit my brothers. Well... Once I kind of bled. But that was when I was being born. You see, he kicked my mom in the stomach March 15, 1983. Hey whaddaya know. Lucky day for me I guess -- that's one day before my birthday.

And it's not like he didnt' spend time with me... Except... Most of the time it was on dates with his girlfriends... Of course... Good thing for himand me I didn't know they were his girlfriends until my parents were about to divorce. I think I would have grown up pretty messed up in the head if I had known.

Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone I could just spill my entire heart to. HAhaha. I guess the internet world at large will have to do for now. This just doesn't have that wonderful feeling of intimacy yanno. Ahh wells. Maybe one day. One day one day.

Sadder than the ugly puppy @ the pound

Me.

Feel like rhyming

Feeling sick and stuffy/ Nobody to love me/ Feeling gross and germy and ugly/ Have to take my medication/ Don't think I can finish my education/ Missing school/ Actin a fool/ Ahh fever of 102 not cool/Shitty is the way to be/ When you're sick n germy as me/ I should blow my nose i suppose/ My snot is so toxic it glows/ But nobody knows/ Cuz I'm just chillin/ As this fever is killin me/ Stillin me to the end/ Ahh but nah don't have any friends/ Chapped lips dry mouth/ Lie down before I die now/ Ahh gotta jet cuz I'm feelin worse things comin' on/ Comin' strong/ Don't have a chance/ Maybe I should try to romance/ Have a deadly dance/ With this desease/ Oh geez/ What am I thinking oh please/ Get me out of this delusional place/ This seasonal case/ This evil stays until the coughing is done/ ahh bronchitis I'll see you again/ Now and then/ This is not the end/Time to go and press send/ Ahh ha. ... this is not the end.

Sick as a rabid dog on morphine in a republican sumo wrestling tournament

Yes, I'm really that sick. I swear! I have the worst luck... I finally decided to go to the doctors today (Feh. I hate doctors)... So then like we went to my normal physician, only he's apparently off for HIS spring break.. And so we call the doctor who's on call for my regular doctor... Only he's off every thursday. YAY me. So I went to this other doctor that was down the street from my doctor.. Yes. Just some random doctor.. During these moments I wish I were dougie howser so I could prescribe myself my own medication.

I remember last year aroudn this time when I was sick... My friend Allen had a small crush on me I think... He brought me flowers, wrote songs and sang them for me and even stayed an entire day nursing me. Those were the days eh... Wish someone would nurse me now... Or just talk to me in bed haha. I hate being bedridden... RIght now I can't even do homework because my head is too fuzzy.

Today everything seems horrible and wrong. My monitor officially burnt out. SIGH. That means it's dead!.. And that means my sticker pics are no longer on it. Bleh. They're on the actual computer part now.. heh. I am working on a puny little 14" screen. This really really REALLLY REAAAAAAAALLLYYYY blows.

Sicker than a slug in your shoe
Kim Nguyen

Tired

I'm so tired. Must be the medicine. Need a hug. From anybody. Talking in fragments... Hah. Must be fading out. Falling into the deep abyss called sleep. Eat your heart out King Henry.

O Sleep! O Sleep. Come to my loathsome bed.

Song of the moment

My life.. Is for you.. And I... Adore you... And I love you more every day.. And I want it that way!
No goodbyes (ain't nothing but a heartbreak)... No more lies (ain't nothing but a mistake)
That is why... I love it when I hear you say.. I want it that way

Oldschool, but still lovely. ^_^;

Wow, Katie

You have your own domain!... I'm so happy for you... But a little hurt -- I wish I were still in your life to experience it. I don't know if you still read my blog or not. I know I still read yours... (I haven't lately because Digital Rice has been such a biach.)... But yeah... I want you to know that I am really sorry that we don't talk anymore. I really do miss you. I heard some things from Niall, but I wish I could have heard them from yourself. Every time I pick up my phone and scroll past your name I think about calling you -- but then I chicken out. I miss you I miss you! ^_^* Haha, I sound so pathetic -- and I know I brought it out on myself.

Maybe one day you can forgive me. I really didn't realize my words would have such a strong affect. I see you have aburningwater link on your site. Are you and him doing well still? Should I delete your account and no longer hope for a return? I don't know what else to say... I guess I'm all out. I miss you, and I will always love you Katie. Please know that. ^_^;

^_^; Audiences Say...

It seems as if ever since I began posting less times with more content on each post, my blog hittage has gone down. It's not that I mind, really, but I find it funny that people come back and read the short little cryptic blogs that I write, more often than the longer posts that actually take some thuoght. Though, some can be cryptic still-- even with length. Heh. Sometimes even moreso because they are long. Aish. I don't know. I guess as I've begun to lose interest in my life, as have my readers.

Dougie Howser

That's what my blog brings to Nick's mind. I have to admit, sometimes I feel that way. ^_~. You know.. Half an hour episode... He learns something moral, types a couple lines in his journal that's deeply profound. Hahaha. Well, perhaps I'm not deeply profound... But... I do have some morals. I realise that I have some uncontrollable and completely whack sense of morality... A code to which I stick to almost unerringly.

For example, unlike the majority of my peers, I've never had alcohol, done drugs or anything mind altering. (Haha.. unless you count the cold medication that I'm on right now)... And I don't plan to try any of it... Ever... ^_^* I'm enough of a crackhead as it is..

The weird thing about me is, I don't have anything against sex... Or anything sex related... Unless of course, it's unhealthy... I mean, what does it matter if two people wanna do it you know? It cant do anything bad unless they do it incorrectly. Sigh.

I don't know though... I don't know. Maybe college will change me... Maybe I'll suddenly become like Ms. I'll try it all.. :P That would be interesting to see. ^_^ I can't really see myself ever doing that though. Bleh... Sometimes I wonder if I'm too much of a goodie-two-shoes.... But I'm not really... Yanno? It's just weird because like... I really rarely feel the need to break rules... I guess it's just because I figure they're there for a reason... I donno. I'm feeling kinda queasy from my medicine.

Ahh... Strep Throat?

Looks like this might be a case of strep throat... Even though I've never had it before... :( My throat is like swollen shut almost though... ANd it's super red inside... And that seems to be the only problem I'm having.. Heh. except for the extreme wooziness that always comes with taking too much medication. 20 minutes before my next dose. WOO HOO. :T I feel kinda good. tingly. but I'd rather just feel healthy

Today I suffered the #1 MOST Traumatizing Experience

That ANY beginning driver could ever experience. So my mom and I, we're like going to go park in the West Valley (Local Community College) parking lot to practice, yeah? And like yeah we'd been doing it for a while and my mom was like why don't we park over there? It's more of a challenge: 2 cars parked 1 space from each other right.. But then right when I got there, i was like i donno it looks like there's ppo in one of those cars, and i was like i dont wanna freak em out with my erratic driving... But my moms like "DONT WORRY it's just a little kid that's waiting for their parents!"... So I was like.. Ok....

So yeah, I park, and we look over -- cuz you know, there' s movement and we're like .. wait what are they doing?? That's not a kid!! and then wer'e like... OHHH MY GOD TheyRE HAVING SEX?~!?~!?~!?~!?~!? And like i was liek oHHHh MY GOD BAKC UP BAKC UP !!!! hAHhA I was hella laughing!! hee hee! HAhahAH but i wa slike BAKC UP BACK UP But my mom kept on like LOOK IN FRONT LOOK IN FRONT OF YOU and i was liek NOOooOOoooOoo nOoooO And then I got out finally......

AHHHH I'm sOOoo Traumatized!! And that's why I'm never parking next to a car again!

So I'm learning how to drive

I'm convinced that I'm going to be one of the worst drivers ever. HaHA... ^_^ I went on my 3rd drive today.. Yesterday I tackled the tight scary pedestrian filled streets of downtown Los Gatos... (It's like the downtown street of every tourist town...)... And today, I hit Lawrence Expressway at 60 miles an hour. O_o; EEEK! It's so scary for real. I can't drive at all... :T Trying to get out of a parking lot, I got yelled at by this 80 year old lady. She was going hella ballistic on me!! She was like "CANT YOU DRIVE?~!?~!?~!~!" and I was like ^_^** IM SORRY I'M STILL LEARNING!! *sheepish look*... I think that just made her angrier... :( Ah wellz. Can't please everybody. I haven't gotten into an accident yet!! But I guess that's understandable since I havent been driving at all... LIke I said, my third time. But hey! My mom always directs me to shopping places so in the last couple days we've gotten almost $200 worth of clothing between the two of us. =} It's great! Instead of paying $30/h for an instructor, my mom spends the money on clothes in between driving to calm my nerves. :P

Ahaha... Found one of my first webpage projects online today

HahAH... I am so.. Strange! Kim's Cute Cute Guide to Anal Surgery.. Proof that you dont need HTML skills to make a good page.

Hmm. . . Actually

It's not that surprising that I know that many people who are already going to UCI... I know about that many people at each UC... ^_^*** ahhaha I'm a crackhead.

Looks like it's really UCI for me

I'm sitting here filling in my forms and everything... And it seems so surreal. I never imagined myself actually going to UCI... West Valley maybe... Berkeley maybe... Haha... Even San Diego... But for some reason, never UCI... It's a little hard for me to adjust, but now that I think about it, it's actually a good thing. People aren't competitive there... and I know a few people who are in my major already... :) Plus quite a few people who are going to be entering as freshmen this year.

It's almost exciting, actually... I get to go to school with my predecessor for the Tech Chair position... Grace, a close high school friend.. Deems - my first KEY Club crush... Bao, a guy I know from Independence... Angel, Arjel's friend... and whoa.. even Roozbeh, one of Ashish and Nates (my old coworkers) good friends... And then there's always Nick... ^^*.

Haha... Its so weird! When I applied to colleges last fall, i almost didn't even apply to Irvine... I thought it would be one of those "I'm really not going to go there even if I get accepted"... :T Things change... ne? >_<

Canadians have sex?!

"Although Canadians are having more sex and doing well in the stamina category, they aren't anywhere near the top of the heap in the category of best lovers..."

School

I've decided that high school is the most mundane thing ever. I hate it :( I'm ready to get out of here already damnit!! GRR.

Right now the ROTC people are talking behind me. They're all in uniform and it's really scary. >_< They're like brainless automatons!! :< Its really freaky... Anyhow I'm going to stop listening to them now. >_< It's so scary "FOLLOW DIRECTIONS NEVER QUESTION!"....

I have a tummy ache.

Ahh! ^_^ Me and Niall!

Hahahaha. Here's me and Niall... This guy has the best personality ever. Except for the fact that he'll ignore ANYBODY to play some Diablo II. -.- but anyhow!! We finally met up at convention! And what a great time it was!! :)



^_^ I love KEY Club

Watched my first porno video

@_@; What an enlightening experience! hahaa.. =O... I never knew that private parts came in so many different forms... hahah... But yeah... I donno.. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be... ^_^* Kinda like an overhyped up movie I guess... It got boring after the first 20 minutes of "Ahh ohh yah me like big dick".. Feh. ^_^*

HOLY COW!

I've never actually gone for an entire week without posting something before... There's so much to catch up on, I don't even know where to start!.

First off, convention was a serious blast. :) I got to meet all the cool people that have been IMing me all year... :P And dance and make a fool of myself on stage! WooHoo... I almost broke David Tepperman's record of freaking 63 people.. :P haha.. just kidding... I didn't even get half.. I got like 25.. I'm such a failure!!

^_^* On thursday before Convention Nick stopped by too. :) It was fun!! We had dinner on the pier and then we took sticker pics and played air hockey! :D Our sticker pics were cuute.. He was like "wanna see my monkey?" hahaha. ^____^** My monkey isn't as good though... Bernie took one look and said "Hey, it's OK, you're like the diddy kong to his donkey kong!" hehehe..

So yeah.. this past week I've missed soooo much school.. Now I have to work extra hard to get it back up and stuff.. But yeah. ^_^* All good!! I actually did homework for like 4 hours today... I'm so proud of myself.. HAHA! woo hoo.